selfhelp | [IC] Appointments Post

[No rejection. Actually, Billy had been half-expecting Teddy to change his mind at the last second and pull him off, so when he doesn't... well.

Yeah, he's doing this. As soon as the underwear is down and enough out of the way, Billy tilts his head and drags his tongue across the length of Teddy's growing erection, fingers curling around the base. He can tell by the feel of it in his hand and against his mouth that Teddy's still unsure, still holding back, but... not stopping him.

So Billy won't stop, either.]

[Wow wow okay whoa - You know what happens when you haven't been touched there in a long time, it gets really sensitive, and all the pleasant feelings that came with it come barreling in.

Thus, Teddy lets out something between a breathy whine and a moan as his back arches, and now he can't resist bending his knees, spreading his legs apart and clenching the sheets with his toes. It's especially good when the feeling was so sudden, seeing how he can't see what Billy's doing, and - nnngh.

He takes in a deep breath, then lets out a shaky exhale as he opens his eyes, just enough to get a hazy view of the ceiling, and feels a smile twitch up.]

Well... hey there. Missed me?

[It sure has been a while since Billy and Little Ted were acquainted, eh, eh, eh]

[That... was a very nice reaction to feel. Billy smiles faintly, breathing on the hardening flesh beneath him, and gives the tip a teasing kiss.]

Someone obviously missed me.

[He won't let his guilt over that bother him, not now. Later, maybe, but it won't matter by then, if he can keep it up long enough to go all the way. He has a chance here to make up for lost time, to make Teddy feel good, and in the process let himself experience it, too.

And it'll be great. It'll be amazing.

One more exhale, and he takes Teddy's erection into his mouth and starts to move. Clumsily at first, but before long it all comes back.

...Heh. Just like riding a bike, Teddy'd said.]

Yeah... yeah... I think I heard it - it trying to call yours once or twice...

[Teddy tilts his head to the side, pressing his cheek against the pillow, and twists his fingers into Billy's hair, already having to hold back the urge to thrust his hips upward. It's a little clumsy, yes, though it feels no less good. But once Billy really starts to get the hang of it? God, Teddy has to part his lips to let out the little noises that want to come out, knowing that he can't hold them back. He doesn't even want to; He wants Billy to hear it, wants him to hear just what every suck and lick and kiss does to him.]

[Billy would respond to the dorkiness of that comment, but he kind of has his mouth full at the moment, and he doubts that Teddy minds. He's re-learning the ropes here, but it's all coming back to him very quickly; it hasn't been that long, after all, not in the grand scheme of things. Almost two years of general friskiness can't just be erased in a couple of months.

Since Teddy's not thrusting then Billy dips his head to take more of the erection into his mouth, his tongue pressing against the underside of it with enthusiasm. He can definitely hear all those reactions, even muffled through the blanket, and it gives him enough encouragement to take it as far as he can.

This is something he's good at. Good... for. It's something he likes doing. And it makes Teddy happy. What more reason does he need to continue?]

[It's definitely something Teddy likes. It makes him turn his head from one side to the other, back arching, sometimes letting his hips press upward into the wetness of Billy's mouth, letting out all of his appreciation even though he's usually quiet. It's been a while, and he's certainly appreciating it, especially with Billy out of sight and thus making all the physical pleasure just about doubled.

But at the same time, he wants to see Billy. The need to do that grows until it becomes overwhelming, as well as the question of whether Billy's turned on at all or not. Teddy doesn't want to know what his confidence would do if it turned out all of this was doing nothing for Billy, so he almost doesn't say it. But in the end, his desire to see Billy wins out, and he tugs gently on his hair, knowing his dick will be particularly upset with him, seeing how hard it is right now.]

B-Bee, are you... I mean... ha-how you doin' down there...?

[Billy would've just responded with a contented noise and carried on with what he's doing, let the interruption just give him an excuse to have his throat vibrate pleasantly on the erection he's currently wrapped around, what with Teddy so obviously enjoying it so much. But something about the tug on his hair and the tone of Teddy's voice makes him wonder if that would really be enough. If maybe he needs to be more up-front about his communication until they're really back into the groove of things again.

After a pause to ponder it, he pulls back, freeing his mouth and moving his hand to let it take over instead. He doesn't want to stop and ruin the sensation he's created already, but Teddy deserves an answer. He lifts his free hand to tug back the covers a bit, revealing his flushed face, moist lips, and disheveled hair.]

I'm fine... I'm great, actually. [He pauses, licking his lips again.] Does it- I mean- do you like it? Should I keep going?

[Did Teddy get him to stop because he'd rather not...?]

[... ... Teddy wasn't quite expecting Billy to pop up looking like that.

His reaction is to stare for a few seconds, flushed in the face himself, eyes literally dark and hazy with pleasure, lips parted...

And then Billy licks his lips and Teddy's just done - As soon as Billy finishes his question, Teddy sits up and leans forward, grabs Billy's cheeks and pulls him in for a fiercely passionate kiss.

Because god, Billy looked absolutely incredibly like that.]

[Oh god, Teddy's getting up, don't get up, he doesn't have to stop, he can-

-he can-

....

...oh.

Billy releases a soft sound of surprise, all he really has time to do before Teddy catches him in the most intense kiss he can recall them having in months. The shock is short-lived, swiftly making way for a rising degree of enthusiasm until he peaks, matching Teddy's passion equally, setting free a pleased groan. He opens up to the kiss, one hand sliding away from the blond's crotch area to touch his side, pulling him in, while the other presses against the bed to lift himself up more to Teddy's level.

He's not sure what he did to merit this sort of kiss, but he clearly must've done something right. Good to know.]

[The fact that Billy's returning the kiss just turns him on even more, letting him groan into the kiss, and he lowers his hands to tug on Billy's hips, pulling him flush into his lap, letting his boyfriend straddle him. It's both to have him closer and to see just how aroused Billy is, or - if he is at all. Regardless, Teddy wraps one arm around his waist, his free hand tangling messily with Billy's hair.

It just goes to show that sometimes just the sight of Billy, especially after going a few minutes without seeing him, only guessing at what he looks like, and ending up underestimating it, the actual sight being a million times better, can set Teddy absolutely on fire. And he feels like he needs to share it before he explodes.]

[If that's what Teddy's after, then it should give him plenty of comfort to know that Billy is just as aroused, his erection straining against the elastic of his underwear and very easily felt against Teddy's body. He'd been doing well enough at the start, with a few hiccups here and there when the guilt had threatened to take over, but the noises Teddy's been making helped to build up the heat in his nether regions, and the passion of their kiss sent him right over the edge. Now that he's straddling Teddy, he feels the strain even more, and he shifts his body closer, letting the fabric - and his dick, in the process - rub against Teddy's body. It makes him groan, his back arching. God, it all feels amazing...]

[Thank god. At least he can do that much. Before the thought can take root, Teddy brushes it aside instantly, much more focused on the wonderful sensations building up between them. The hand at Billy's waist slides up his back, then down again, grabbing Billy's underwear and pulling it down as much as he can with his knees bent the way they are.

It's okay, though; he's not really looking to take them off. All he wants is contact, their naked bodies pressed up against each other, their erections rubbing together - and that's what he does. Once the underwear is slid down enough, Teddy fumbles to find one of Billy's hands, then guides it to their erections, so that they can both stroke them together.

Instead of just one of us giving the other all they've got, how about we do this like a team.

At least for this first time. Teddy's sure that, after this, they'll be up to much more before the week is over.]

[Billy's brows lift at that, surprised for a moment, but it fades again as clarity sinks in. Together... of course. This is what Teddy wanted from the start, why he'd been refused for this sort of thing in the past. He'd been trying so hard to please Teddy that he'd still been forgetting the most important part, working together. Even this time, he'd fallen behind, however unintentionally it had been. Thankfully, Teddy had his back.

So... together. He can do that. He can definitely do that. With a heavy exhale, he wraps his hand around their erections with Teddy, his other arm lifting up to wind around Teddy's shoulders, drawing him in for another kiss. If they're doing this as a team, he wants to be connected in every way he can possibly get away with.]

[If Teddy had his mouth free, he would've hissed out a yes in response to Billy realizing what he wanted, and going along with it. Since it isn't, he lets out a moan in Billy's mouth instead, winds his free arm around Billy's waist to pull him close and, with his other hand, he begins to stroke.

With both their hands at work, they fumble a bit at first, but it doesn't take them long to find their footing and create a rhythm together, and the feeling is amazing. He clenches his eyes and presses further into the kiss, opening up for Billy and giving him all the control, meanwhile working with him to bring them both to their peak. Teddy's already pretty close, with growing aroused first and Billy sucking him, but he'll hold out as long as he can for Billy to catch up. He doesn't want him to be too far behind, after all.]

[Teddy shouldn't worry too much about that; it's been so long, and watching his boyfriend had been so arousing, that Billy's not far behind at all. After a few moments of their joined stroking and the enthusiastic passion of the kiss, Billy's groaning right back at him, his hips arching to mimic a thrusting motion. And for the first time in a long while, he really, truly wants it. He wants to reach that peak again with Teddy right there with them, wants to soar and find those stars and fall, fall, and...

...he lets himself want it. He does, and... it feels amazing.

He gasps into Teddy's mouth, his hand jerking unsteadily as he finally orgasms, his entire body trembling. He can't say that it's been worth the wait, not exactly, but god, is it ever intense.

And Teddy's still there, still right there with him.]

[Their release is so close together that Teddy isn't sure if it was at the same time or not. But when he felt that Billy was close, still so obvious even after all this time of not seeing and feeling the signs, Teddy stopped holding back. He'd pushed his hips against Billy's thrusts, started to stroke unevenly and felt his body sway, and in that next moment, he finds his crest and just dives off of it. He presses a groan against Billy's lips, jerks his hips unsteadily, and he has to break the kiss as he arches his back and tilts his head upward.

He'd been hoping to take the next step in rebuilding their intimacy and get more physical with Billy, and while Teddy wishes they went all the way, this is definitely okay. And with how long they went without pleasuring each other, every sensation, every moment of falling and drifting is so much more intense, just like the first time they really fooled around with each other - awkward, nervous, flustered, but no less sincere and happy.

And Billy's right there with him, still here after all this time. Two years, just a day off the mark. They're still here and stronger than ever, even if they're still repairing themselves.]

[Together. They'd done it together. It wasn't just him getting Teddy off - which he'd have been fine with, obviously, but Teddy wasn't - and it wasn't both of them getting nothing the way it has been, just feeling horny and uncomfortable and guilty and a little unloved.

No... they'd finally done it again.

And it felt amazing.

He needs air again, suddenly, desperately, so Billy breaks the kiss, tilting his head to rest it against Teddy's instead. He breathes him in, indulging in the heat of it, the scent of his boyfriend, the way his breath is a little bit visible in the chilly air. And as he comes down from that glorious high, he can't help but tell himself over and over how lucky he is to have someone like this in his life.

Teddy waited. And when Teddy was being pushed ahead, he pulled Billy up to join him.

If that isn't perfection, he doesn't know what is.

He can't speak yet - too busy panting and breathlessly laughing at his own good fortune, here - but he hopes the way he's holding Teddy will convey his feelings.]

[For a moment, Teddy's arm stays loosely around Billy's waist, and his other hand stays between them, pressed against their bodies while he rests his head against Billy's, breathing hard, drifting in that perfect sea of satisfaction.

But when he breaks through the surface and is more aware of himself, he works his hand away to slide his arm around Billy's shoulders, the other tightening around his waist, to pull him close and just hold him there, breathing in his scent, feeling how close together they are, sharing their heat and love. And Teddy feels so incredibly happy, knowing that Billy reached that peak with him as he listens to him breathe heavily and...

And holding him in all the ways Teddy would do so, like he was the best thing that ever happened, the greatest gift, and he knew to treasure it. It makes him tighten his hold, wanting to just curl up and melt into it. It's been so long since he really felt this way...

Teddy would love to be held like that forever. But they - or at least Billy - would probably freeze like this. So once he recovers enough, Teddy reluctantly pulls back enough to brush his nose against Billy's and opens his eyes to smile at him.]

Hi.

[It takes Billy a moment or so longer to come back, breathing tremulously between them, his hand sticky and shaking as he lifts it to hold Teddy in return, feeling satisfied, contented, incredibly loved. He smiles back easily enough, slumping weakly against his boyfriend. Lover.

They're okay.

Finally, he opens his eyes, bleary-eyed and even a bit misty. It might be a terrible cliche to feel like crying after sex, but... he really does feel like crying. It was good, so good. So much better than he'd ever expected, after what he'd done. And they hadn't even gone all the way yet.]

Hey...

[God, what did he ever do to deserve this second chance?]

[Teddy notices the wetness in Billy's eyes, and it makes him bump foreheads with his boyfriend, then holds him close as he reclines, leaning back until his head is against the pillow again. One hand reaches down to pull the covers up and over them, and the other slides up to Billy's hair, carding his fingers through the strands.]

I love you. [Once the cover's over them enough to trap some heat, Teddy moves his now free hand to stroke his cheek.] I love you so much...

[Billy slumps almost bonelessly against Teddy now that they're lying down, curling up as close as he can get and burying his face in the crook of his boyfriend's neck. He lets his eyes rub against the surface of the pillow for a moment - just enough to brush away the tears before they can fall - before shifting his head back to let Teddy stroke his face, one hand lifting to join the one touching him as he smiles.]

I love you, too... and... thank you. For pulling me along with you. It really is better when we do it together...

I wouldn't want to be there without you beside me.

[Teddy lifts his legs, then turns them to entwine with Billy's, even using a bit of shifting when human limitations make it impossible to do more. It's like he's trying to get as close as possible, wanting to hold and touch him in every way, after being so deprived of it for so long.]

I think... maybe the springs can wait for a few minutes. Yeah?

[Billy notices the shifting down below - it'd be hard not to, with them already so close - but all he does is blink and then relax, allowing himself to be pulled in. Honestly, it's great to see Teddy shifting when he wants to again, rather than when he thinks he needs to impress someone. He might still slip up now and then, but Billy can tell the difference between the two. This? This is a good shift.]

Ha... yeah, I think you're right. Though we'll have to get cleaned up eventually.

[They've done the whole sleep-while-sticky before. It never ends well when morning comes.

He's okay with cuddling for a while, though. They need this, they really do. And he just wants to quietly relish in the aftermath now. He settles in as close as he can be, nuzzling affectionately against Teddy.]

Right now, though, I'm pretty happy with where I am.

Mmhmm. [Teddy desperately needs this, holding the love of his life and reveling in the affection and love that comes from afterglow. He needs it like a thirsty man needs water, and he certainly takes his time to drink it up.

It's not just because this feels wonderful; it's Billy, right there and holding him and nuzzling against him and pressing closer despite Teddy's weird shifting that makes this so important. There were so many things he worried about, still worries about, regarding him and them and what's genuine and what isn't. This? This makes those worries disappear, makes the monsters seem less threatening with each tender caress and touch, each word of love and admiration that Billy gives him.

Teddy needs this, and so he relishes in it, breathes it in and soaks in their shared heat.]

You think we can do that again? Later, I mean. After we're springed out. [And maybe tomorrow, when they celebrate their anniversary for real, they can...]

[Billy has to look up at that, to catch Teddy's eyes and get a good look at his expression, surprise and lingering anxiety in his own. But mostly? It's anticipation. He has no idea if Teddy means more sex or just cuddling, but honestly, it doesn't matter to him. Whatever they decide to do, it'll be good. It'll be great. Because it's them, together, a team.

And this is what he's been craving all this time, it seems. Being together. Being comfortable. Being freely, openly in love.

He smiles, and it's bright and honest and genuinely happy with the suggestion, whatever the meaning behind it might be.]

...I'd like that.

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