selfhelp | [IC] Appointments Post

... Wait, you've been counting?

[The question, while surprised and embarrassed, is vague and quiet, as if he's not expecting an answer. The importance of it was shed the moment Billy started to press his mouth against his navel, when his fingers started to stroke and tease and wander a little closer to where he's starting to need the most attention; he can feel his arousal starting to strain against his pants, having slowly grown as if curious by all that was going on.

He can feel one of his hands letting go and, remembering the challenge, Teddy makes himself hold on again. It's just so, so natural to want to slide his hand into Billy's hair, encouraging him, wanting to keep him there. Instead, he communicates by tipping his head back with a sigh, lips remaining parted, and keeping his hips raised. He hopes Billy can get the message, even with his hands tied.]

Mmmmm.

[It's as much of an answer as he's going to offer; he's too pleasantly occupied to care about the topic much, and he suspects Teddy is much the same at this point. The physical cues he's getting from his boyfriend are more than enough to encourage him to continue, so Billy doesn't hesitate, using his free hand to drag the pants further down while Teddy's lifted himself up. It's much easier to do, and it means he can slide his hand further in, fingers stroking at the very base of his erection. God, he can feel it already, and it feels great. Only the second time to touch it in as many days after months of nothing, and it's still like coming home. This is exactly how he'd been hoping it would feel.

He smiles against Teddy's stomach, and shifts over towards his hip instead of moving his lips lower, nipping gently at Teddy's skin. He plans to love on every inch he can get to before he takes things to the next step.]

[Teddy does wish Billy moved further down, but... this is fine, too.

I love your hips, Billy had said just yesterday, the words echoing in his head when he feels kisses against one of them.

I hate my hips, he thinks to himself. But if Billy loves them, loves every part of him, then maybe... he can learn to like himself again? He had, before they were taken away and broken apart, before the spell that threatened to ruin what they had. He at least thought these parts of himself were okay. It kind of freaks him out, knowing that he can so easily dive right back into such negative thoughts about his own body. That he's capable of it, even after so many talks and this long of accepting who he was.

But he can learn again, right? He'd learned before when he thought it was impossible. It's possible, even if it's hard. He knows that for sure. And he knows Billy's willing to be with him every step of the way.

So he doesn't protest, merely lets his lips quirk up while he lets out a quiet chuckle, and he bends his leg to stroke Billy's back with his foot. If he's not allowed to move his hands, then he can move his feet, right?]

[It feels a bit like cheating, as Billy instinctively lifts his body to indulge in the sensation, but he doesn't protest it. It's what Teddy wants, for one - still his main priority - but... it's also what feels good, for him. And he's reaching the point where he's okay with that.

He'd been planning to switch things up shortly, but maybe he can indulge in this for a little while. Choosing to play this game meant starving himself from Teddy's touch as much as testing Teddy's self-control, so he's glad that a bit of a loophole was found. Trust his boyfriend to find a way.

You really are the best. He can't say it with his mouth so preoccupied, so he tries to convey his appreciation through touch and tongue. In the meantime, he gets Teddy's pants down enough to fully expose his underwear. That'll make things much easier in the near future...]

[Spurred on by Billy's reaction, Teddy continues the motion, stroking against his side and down to the small of his back as well, before moving his foot back up again. And with his underwear exposed, it's all too easy to see his arousal straining against his briefs, just begging for a little more room.]

So... is the goal here to get me naked before you take anything off?

[Yes, his eyes are covered. But he can tell Billy hasn't taken any clothes off - not that Teddy wants to miss any part of Billy doing so. He might just have to break the rules if Billy starts doing that.]

Mm... I hadn't decided yet. But I'm not opposed to the idea.

[He doesn't want to focus on his own body - he's not the one who has issues about it, after all. And being naked or showing more skin would likely cause Teddy to get distracted. He's in favour of them both being naked eventually, but... well, he'd like to indulge this, first. Pamper his boyfriend, make sure he knows that he's loved.

He goes back to massaging Teddy's skin with his lips and tongue, but he does have the decency to get one hand wander over to the bulge in Teddy's underwear, stroking him teasingly beneath the material. A little prelude of what's to come, basically. (And literally. Heh.)]

It's not a bad idea, no...

[And if he thought it was, he doesn't for long once Billy starts to stroke him. Teddy spreads his legs further apart to give him more room, though he keeps his foot where it is - in fact, he hooks his toes against the edge of Billy's shirt enough to slide it upwards a little, enough to let him stroke the bare skin of Billy's side.

God, but the things Billy's doing to him, not just to his arousal but all over his body, or at least everything Billy reached so far... At least once in his life, he criticized every part of himself. So for this to happen, especially so shortly after a period where he doubted everything about himself again, doubted one of the few good things to happen in his life...

It's hard to keep holding on to the headboard when all he wants to do is hold Billy close to him and revel in being held in return. But this is a game they're playing, and he doesn't want to lose just yet.]

[Hrngh, that foot against his back is really distracting. It takes significant effort to stay focused on his 'mission', but somehow, he manages. A noise or two escapes his lips, though, a sign that Teddy's accomplishing something with his blind exploration.

Before too long, though, Billy's hand is replaced by his face, rubbing it affectionately against the bulge in Teddy's briefs before he lifts up and grips the fabric with his teeth, dragging it down, his hands on either side of Teddy's hips to ease its movement. Within moments, Teddy's erection is exposed to the air, and Billy breathes against it, letting his hands wrestle with getting the underwear off and out of the way.

With Teddy naked, his options just opened a whole new series of doors. Now it's just a matter of deciding what to do. Does he go for the obvious trump card, or...?]

[It took a bit of movement on his part, lifting his hips and stretching his legs, but once his underwear is off, Teddy parts his lips and presses his head back against the pillow, the sensation of Billy near his erection causing all sorts of anticipating butterflies to flutter in his stomach. He'd been just barely teased already, what with the rubbing and the breathing, and it seems like such a little taste that Teddy's anxious to get to the rest already.

With Billy still trying to decide what to do, Teddy slides his toes along the small of Billy's back, then down further, having to go outside of his clothes to slide along the curve of Billy's ass appreciatively, an amused smile crossing his lips as he does so. What can he say, really?]

Mm, Billyyy...

Nnn... is that your way of giving back or getting revenge?

[Billy's back arches, and he uses that touch to drive him forward, decision made. It's not like he can't switch things around in a bit, after all. And Teddy never did let him finish doing this yesterday (though he wouldn't complain about that, considering how fantastic it had ended up). Back then it had been about doing it together. Today? He's giving this to Teddy. To show him he still wants this, still loves doing this. To show that he'd do anything to make Teddy happy.

He shifts back down and drags his tongue across Teddy's length, teasing it over the tip. Let's see how long he can hold on with this.]

Maybe a bit of bo - ooh...

[This is definitely a good direction to take. Teddy lets go of the headboard, then holds on again, his head tilting back once more, and lets out a long, pleased sigh. Unlike yesterday, he's not quite opposed to Billy giving him all this attention, although he would like to go all the way before he loses it. Still, this right here? Considering the way Teddy tilts his hips upward, the sensations practically doubling thanks to the pseudo-blindfold, he has no real qualms with this.]

B... Both... yeah...

[Billy would smirk at that reaction - or offer some sort of smug remark - but his mouth is too occupied at the moment, particularly when he shifts forward enough to get Teddy's erection properly into his mouth. He's not going to go all the way if he can avoid it, but this is a nice prelude, especially with the way Teddy's responding to it.

And... now that he's giving his tongue a bit of a warm-up, he's starting to get other ideas, too. If Teddy's up for it, then maybe...]

[God, the way that feels without being able to see it... It's hot and wet and encompassing, and Teddy feels a strain in his thighs as he fights the urge to thrust upward without abandon. Instead, he grips onto the headboard tightly, and he moves his hips enough to both quell his urge and to not choke Billy to death. It's obvious how much he's starting to lose the battle, though; his hands keep moving, either letting go and holding on again or sliding along the headboard for a better grip, wanting so badly to hold onto his boyfriend.

He's not sure what other ideas Billy has in mind, but if they're anything like this, then Teddy's all for it.]

[Billy's confident in his ability to win this game, even when he's so out of practice; he knows all too well what he can accomplish with his tongue. He can drag Teddy towards the edge and then pull him back again, tease him and pamper him with slim fingers and gently grazing teeth. He won't let Teddy finish, not this early, but if he can get him to either let go or break the headboard, it would be a hell of a victory.

Either way, he's watching with his touch, judging when to stop and when to move by the sounds he hears. He'll move on in a few minutes if Teddy hasn't caved or broken something by then.]

[A few minutes? Teddy certainly can't last that long, even if they weren't making a game out of it. ItT takes just a moment for a little crack to be heard in the headboard and, not wanting to break something that isn't theirs, Teddy finally gives up, lowering his arms in a way that makes the shirt slide over his face and shoulders again to grip the sheets below him. If he cracked the headboard, then he doesn't want to do the same thing to Billy's head, after all.]

Oh my god, okay, okay, you - you win, I, ah - I...

[Well. Billy can get the message well enough, as Teddy turns his head against the pillow and presses his hips up towards that glorious mouth. At this point, he just wants Billy to bone him straight into the mattress already, so maybe now that he gave in...]

[....Heh.

Billy dwells on his victory just long enough to be an enormous tease, but not long enough to be annoying about it. Almost reluctantly he withdraws, licking his lips and using his hands to press Teddy's hips back down. It takes an unsurprising amount of his strength to do it, but he manages somehow. Though it won't matter in a minute.]

Ha... alright.

[He leans in to kiss Teddy's stomach, rubbing his thighs to try and wind him down a bit. Can't have him lose it yet.]

Hey, can you roll over? I... want to try something.

[While Teddy would rather keep facing Billy for all of this, the fact that he's wanting to try new things is enough to make Teddy want to follow everything he tells him to do. He's been shying away from actually taking action so much that hearing this sounds like a gift from god.

Still, Teddy has to take another moment to breathe hard and wind down a little further, just so that he won't lose it as soon as Billy starts doing - whatever it is he's going to do. Once he feels like he won't explode in the next minute or two, Teddy nods, then rolls over; first to his knees, where he slides his shirt off and tosses it carelessly to the side, then bending at the waist, letting out a long breath as he presses his forehead against the pillow and curls his fingers into the sheets.]

Ready when you are... [He's not sure what he should be ready for, but he trusts Billy with whatever it is.]

[Once Teddy is in position, Billy shifts closer again, pressing his hands over Teddy's back, brushing very gently against the wing feathers, then moving further down, rubbing against the curve of his backside. He's had this thought sort of... idly on and off for a while now, and it took the back-burner while they got used to one another again, to trusting and loving and depending on the one they love. He's not sure if this is the right time to do this, but the idea won't leave him alone, now.]

If... if you don't like it, or if you get uncomfortable... tell me, okay? And I'll stop. Pick a safe word or something. The last thing I want to do is kill the mood by freaking you out.

[It's an exceptionally vague warning, but he kind of wants an honest reaction out of Teddy, and that means leaving it as a surprise.]

[The touches all caused him to relax further, even the ones against his wings; it helps that it was a gentle touch more than anything else. He's smiling by the time Billy speaks, and what he says causes him to turn his head slightly, curious and intrigued.

So this is something new that Billy's going to do... Something they haven't done before. Teddy can't find it in himself to be worried about it; he's all too eager to try whatever it is Billy has in mind, and with each minute that goes by, he's more and more happy about the fact that he decided to give Billy the reins with this. Although he is a little worried about Billy staying fully clothed; is he all right back there? Does he at least need the pants off or anything...?

So Teddy turns his head forward again, hiding his smile in the pillow because, well... he is in kind of a vulnerable position here.]

Okay. I got it. So, safe word, safe word... Wanna pass the time making yourself more comfortable while I think of something?

[Because if he knows Billy, then all the reactions Teddy made and - and everything, really, has got to be making his pants unbearably tight.]

[Oh. Oh, wow. He hadn't been too serious, but- god, they really should have one, shouldn't they? That's a thing couples do?

Billy gives his mind all of three seconds to fret about it before he brushes it aside. He'd suggested it, and it'll make him feel better if Teddy has a way of instantly putting things to a halt. If he'd still been practicing magic, he'd be game to place a spell on it- that's how serious he thinks it should be. He knows his self-control will be enough, though.

Teddy's suggestion is a good distraction, as well as a reminder that yeah, pampering Teddy and seeing him like that, stretched out and naked and willing- shit. Yeah, the pants, at least, have got to come off.]

Mm... good idea. [He presses a kiss to Teddy's cheek - the other cheek - and rolls over to wriggle out of his pants.] Tell me when you're ready.

[The kiss makes his smile grow, and when he feels Billy roll away, Teddy rolls to his side to finally, finally watch him, fingers stroking along his own erection to give it some relief. God, his boyfriend is so beautiful, and he shows his admiration openly on his face as he tries to think of a word. And just as he's thinking that Billy should think of one instead, something comes to mind.]

Hobbit. How about that?

"Nasty hobbitses."

[The response is automatic and unthinking, with his (now bare) back to Teddy as he kicks his pants off the bed and out of the way. Only then does he glance back, his cheeks going a bit red as he notices Teddy gazing at him and touching himself like that. It's a hell of a good indication that he's interested in continuing this, if his word alone hadn't been enough to go by.]

I mean, uh. That works. It'll definitely derail whatever I'm doing.

Hobbit it is, then.

[And since he went a damn long time without getting to touch Billy in return, Teddy scoots forward to indulge in just that for a moment; with Billy's back to him, Teddy presses open, tender kisses against the nape of his neck, then downward, along his spine and shoulder blades, while one hand smears up and down Billy's side and occasionally moves forward to circle his navel.

He knows not to keep it up, though; this is Billy's time to be in charge, and they do need to get things moving. Teddy just had to give him some affection, love and teasing, though. Once he's satiated, Teddy moves himself away and rolls again, bent and on his knees again with his forehead resting against the pillow.]

Okay... ready.

[Well. That didn't help his self-restraint any, that's for sure. Billy can't hold back his groans - first from Teddy's touches, then from the loss of them when his boyfriend withdraws. Still, it's fuel for the fire, too- incentive to keep going, and to work his way up towards where it gets really good.

Once Teddy's back in position, Billy shifts closer once more, taking up a position behind the blond, then leans in first to kiss, then to explore with his tongue in a way he's never done before.

God, let this be an okay idea.]

[Oh dear god, what is he doing with - what is he - oh jesus -]

Bi - Oh God!

[It's definitely not a "hobbit", tensing only from surprise. And how can he not be - That is a tongue up his ass, for complete lack of elegance. He's heard of this, never thought he'd do it or be on the receiving end of it, even though the idea would flit into his head when doing heavy foreplay with Billy.

And now? Well, he would be thinking that he should do the same to Billy sometime, except he can't really think right now. That whole area is incredibly sensitive, and Billy's tongue there feels amazing, enough for Teddy to grip the sheets, arch his back and let out a louder moan than before.

This is an okay idea. This is more than an okay idea. It's a great idea.]

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