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[Teddy can certainly understand. Especially when he returns that kiss with just as much fervor, and groans into it when he grinds their hips together. It's just so much right now - Billy below him, practically all around him, kissing him and pressing against him like this, heat and closeness and moisture and - It's perfect, like this. And he's sure it'll get even better when they really get things started.

Right, getting things started...

He slows down the movements of his hips and eases out of the kiss, where he stares down at Billy with darker eyes and glances to the side awkwardly.]

Uh, we... we need some kind of... you know, lube. [And maybe they ought to get into a better position, with Billy's head under a pillow and everything.]

[...Nothing quite as mood-killing as the awkwardness of not knowing where to go from here. The movement of Billy's hands slow to a halt in his hair, and he blinks blearily at his boyfriend, coming down from that wonderful high of a brilliant kiss. Yes. Yes, they need... something. For. ...Down there.

...Wow, what is he, five?

Giving Teddy's hair one final stroke, he slides his hands down to rest them on the other boy's shoulders, urging him back so he can sit up. They had condoms, so that was a good start. Lube should be with those, right? He'd been subtly keeping an eye out in the shops for a while now, so it's a matter of figuring out where he hid them after the Pepper incident.]

Yeah, um... I've got some. Hang on.

[He casts another glance around the room, absently kicking his underwear the rest of the way off. They're sitting on a bed buck-naked and they can't do a damn thing until they have-

OH. He sets a quick kiss to the corner of Teddy's mouth and rolls off the bed, scampering over to the bookshelf and crouching down to the second shelf. Enjoy the view while you wait, boyfriend, it's a full moon tonight.]

[And here Teddy was about to lean in and kiss him, just to break that awkward tension of sitting there naked and wondering where the lube is. Then Billy's kissing him and moving, and -

... Hello, Kaplan butt.

Teddy leans his elbow on his knee and rests his cheek against his hand, a little smile on his face as he watches quite shamelessly. It's definitely not often that Billy's completely naked, and Teddy intends to milk the show for all it's worth.]

Mm, nice view.

[Billy's about to announce his victory when he catches wind of Teddy's comment, and he glances over his shoulder at his rather shameless boyfriend, lifting an eyebrow at him.]

I knew I should have brought a blanket with me.

[It's a silly comment considering what they're about to do with each other - naked, and they've seen each other plenty of times before in varying states of undress, but you just don't wander around naked, okay, it's a modesty thing - and he's fighting in vain with the blush that is crossing his cheeks as he returns to the task at hand. Pulling a book from the shelf, he scoots back to the bed, climbing up and crossing his legs, feeling oddly self-conscious after that scrutiny. The book in his lap is what appears to be the first Lord of the Rings, but when he opens the cover, it's hollowed out, revealing several condom packages and a little tube.]

We should be good with this.

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Teddy isn't sure if this is the geekiest thing he's ever seen or the hottest. Probably both.]

The Fellowship of the Ring wants us prepared for the journey, don't they?

Well, this is where all the prep work happened. If I'm going to be Bill the Pony for the night, a saddle is required. "One does not simply ride bareback into Mordor."

[Yeah, he totally just did that. And he doesn't even look embarrassed about it, either- his only blush is the residual from Teddy's moment of voyeurism. He pulls a condom and the lube from the book, offering it out.]

...And before you ask, I didn't ruin a real copy. The compilation set's in the bedside table.

[He feels compelled to add that, in case Teddy starts wondering who he is and what he did with his boyfriend. Even for sex, desecrating Lord of the Rings is just wrong.]

[Oh god - One does not simply - Teddy presses his hand over his mouth to try to hide his laughter, but it doesn't help that much. It's both humor and virgin nerves working against him here.

Once he calms down enough, he takes the condom and the lube and opens his mouth to ask something - only to get cut off by exactly what he wanted to confirm.]

I thought so. If this was the real thing, I'd have to stop everything just to ensure that aliens didn't abduct my real boyfriend.

[And now to look down at the lube and the condom and wonder what he's supposed to do with them. It's certainly not the first time he's ever put on a condom, but...

... Fuck they're really about to do this.]

[Are you laughing at his clever Lord of the Rings sexual reference, Teddy. For shame.

Billy considers his boyfriend for a long moment, observing his baffled, vaguely panicked expression, lifting a brow suspiciously at the lube. He knows where that goes. It's pretty basic problem-solving, here. It's just, uh...]

...Want gloves or something?

[Can you be gay and squeamish about what goes where? Because this probably won't seem natural for a while, and he's fine with it in theory, but the process of it...]

Or- I guess I could, uh. Do it. Myself.

[Oh god seriously, they are going to take forever with all this fumbling.]

Edited (and then billy blasted teddy with magic apparently idk) 2012-09-28 01:47 (UTC)

Uh - It's okay. I can. Do it myself. I mean, for you.

[Isn't that the easiest way? For the other person to do it? Besides, it'd be weird to just - just sit there and watch Billy do, uh... that. To himself.

But the process is still so new, and they're really about to do this. There is absolutely no way Teddy's backing out, and he definitely wants this. He's not about to let the butterflies who feel like they're going to flutter themselves to death in his stomach win.

So he leans forward and, trying to quell the nerves of them both, he begins to place kisses against the side of Billy's neck, meanwhile uncapping the lube. Okay. Okay.]

Mm, you should - probably lie down. For this.

[They're still a little clumsy, but knowing that Teddy's as nervous as he is makes Billy feel better about it. He reaches up to curve his hand around to the back of Teddy's neck, tilting his head to give him space and leaning back, pulling the blond gently with him as he lies down against the mattress. He begins to stroke the skin beneath his fingers, breathing deeply, fighting to keep himself relaxed despite feeling like little more than a bundle of nerves right now. He knows that relaxing his muscles is supposed to be a big part of this, but how is he supposed to stay calm when they're actually about to have sex?]

I think I'm supposed to say something cliche or girlish right now, like "oh, Teddy, please be gentle with me".

[Teddy snorts against his neck, and he moves up to brush his lips briefly against the top of Billy's ear before whispering into it.]

Why so girlish? Last time I checked, you definitely weren't a girl.

[And he punctuates that with a roll of his hips against Billy's, and a soft sound that his boyfriend can likely hear thanks to being so close to his ear.

With that done with, Teddy ducks his head so that he can actually see what he's doing. He... lubes up the fingers, right? And then - yeah. That. But Billy's still so tense, and it's staying relaxed is supposed to be a big part of this.

... Hmm. Maybe Teddy can help with that, as well as soothing some of his own nerves.

So he scoots his knees down while he starts to travel down Billy's body, kissing down the length of it appreciatively, while he tries to slick his fingers without looking at them. Of course, that's a little awkward, and he ends up spilling some of it on the bed. But that's all right; the bed's bound to get messy in a very different fashion in just a moment.

Teddy has a goal here. And that goal is suddenly near his face, still hard and hot, and he looks up again to give a lopsided grin. He feels like he should tease him some more for that line, but really, what can he say?

So, instead of saying anything, he just shuts his eyes and begins taking the tip of Billy's arousal into his mouth, while his hands rub together to ensure that the lube isn't going to be too cold.]

[Billy releases a startled but pleased groan when he feels Teddy's lips against his tip, hands lifting so he can twist his fingers in the blond's hair. If Teddy's looking to distract him from what he's about to do down below, he's found the perfect method.]

H-haa... way to prove your point, there...

[His breath quickens, heart racing in anticipation, and he slides his legs upwards so that they're bent, knees pressed on either side of Teddy's body. He closes his eyes, slumping his head back against the pillow, and closes his eyes as he focuses on the tongue on his length rather than the presumably very strange sensation he's waiting to feel.

He's nervous, yes, but he's trusting Teddy to figure out how to do it right. They're a team, after all- the best team. They'll find a way and do it together.]

Hmmm.

[Billy isn't the only one feeling nervous, though Teddy feels a little silly for doing so. He isn't the one who's about to feel what's probably a very strange sensation, after all. He's just... doing most of the work and making sure he doesn't hurt the love of his life and...

Yeah.

His fingers do feel slicked up enough, though. Now... what was it the books and websites said? Slide one finger in first, right inside - mmf.

Teddy hesitates for a second, then slides his fingers below where the other action is going on, moving along the curve, trying to find the spot where things will start and hopefully, definitely, finish. It's easy to find on yourself, yes, but another person? That's -

Aaaah, there we go.

Now, Teddy wants to ensure that this will be as painless as possible for Billy, and he has an advantage with his powers and his position. He curls his fingers first and feels them starting to thin just a little. Sure, it will probably still feel weird, but hopefully not be as uncomfortable at first as the internet makes it out to be.

Now it's time to test that theory. As Teddy takes a quick glance at Billy and rests a supporting hand against his outer thigh, he starts to slide one of those fingers inside, meanwhile taking Billy a little further into his mouth. Nngh. They only just started this and Teddy can already imagine what it'd be like to move things along and take it further, even though he knows he has to be patient and take it slow, for Billy's sake. More to look forward to, then.]

[.........

That's... really weird. Really weird. Billy is distantly aware of it, since it would be damn hard to miss, but Teddy has the right idea of keeping him thoroughly distracted with the part of his body more urgently requiring attention, so the sounds he's making are at least four-parts pleasure. And it isn't like it hurts, either- Teddy's taking it slow for that reason, he's sure. It just feels so bizarre.

He can get used to this, though. Probably. Eventually.

The silence - outside of his own pants and groans - is almost unbearable, though, bringing back his nerves full-throttle, and since Teddy's mouth is occupied he's determined to fill the void.]

Teh... oh my god, Teddy, this is the strangest feeling...

[He doesn't sound displeased, at least. If anything he's baffled by how much he's actually starting to enjoy it.]

Hmph.

[Teddy can't exactly respond with words, though he does wait a moment with his fingers and keeps going with his mouth. He takes him a little further, and he slides the hand at Billy's thigh up to his hip: it's okay.

Still, he does glance up, at least to make sure that Billy isn't in pain or anything, before he lowers his eyes again, slides his hand back to its place on his boyfriend's thigh, and takes it a little further by moving his finger, forward and back, slowly and gently and ready to stop if necessary. If not, though, he'll add a second, equally as slick, and also as thin. He'll try letting them grow back to their original size in a moment.

God, but those noises Billy's making, the way he squirms, the way he can imagine the movement of his fingers being replaced with something else soon - even with the sorely neglected part of his body begging for attention, this is enough to make him let out quiet sounds of his own.]

[Oh god, that's two. Billy can feel the difference at once, and it makes him squirm, though he tries to be careful after a moment when it occurs to him that he's still got his erection buried in Teddy's mouth. Oops. It's hard not to, though, because the mixed feeling of awkwardness and anticipation has him nearly gasping by now. Doesn't help that the sounds Teddy is making are causing little vibrations down his shaft.

The fingers of one hand are tight in the blankets, his body tense and trembling, the other hand still twined in the strands of Teddy's hair. Against his will his hips are lifting a little with each movement Teddy makes.]

K... keep going. I wanna do this. I wanna go...

[He knows they can't rush it, but... well, maybe they can push it a little...]

[Judging by how Teddy's lips curl in a smile, he doesn't seem to mind the way Billy's moving his hips. He moves his head back, tongue dragging along Billy's length, before he shoots him a smirk, swallows as he shifts his gag reflex back and away entirely, then lowers his head again, completely engulfing him now.

As he moves his head back a little more, he pushes his fingers in deeper, stretches them a bit, trying to find something; he'd heard, he knows that there's a certain spot that will make this completely and totally worth it for Billy, he just has to figure out where it is...]

[Well, someone seems pleased with himself. Billy endures Teddy's exploration for a little while longer, since he really, really wants to enjoy this properly, but the weirdness of it all is starting to get to him, especially now that it's deeper, thicker, and it's starting to interfere with that delightful sensation on his erection. He's about two seconds away from asking Teddy if they're possibly doing something wrong when-

-suddenly-]

Hrngh!!

[His hands lash out, slapping over his mouth to muffle a strangled scream. Even with the sound-proofing enchantment he'd given the surfaces of his room, the reaction is automatic. Without it, he's not sure how loud that would have been.

Teddy definitely found something, because it felt like a rush of- of euphoria, waves of pleasure dragging him down from an incredible but brief high. It's hard to breathe all of a sudden.]

Oh... oh god. Oh god, oh my god, ohmygodohmygod.

[At that, Teddy opens his eyes and looks up at Billy again, leaning his head back once more to free his mouth. Well. That was quite the reaction.]

Oh. ... Found it? [WELL WHAT ELSE DOES HE SAY. "Ooh baby you like that?"]

[Uugh, that amazing feeling is fading away and Teddy's moved his mouth and dammit it's feeling weird again-]

I... ha... I'd really like you to find it again, if you could... oh my god...

[Finally, Teddy lets out a huff of a laugh, and he gives a lazy, yet tight smirk as he leans down, letting his lips hover close to Billy's arousal again.]

I think that can be arranged.

[He pulls his fingers back, then pushes them forward again, aiming towards the spot that made Billy react like that. Teddy himself lets out a long breath as he does so - God, seeing Billy react like that...

He kind of can't take it anymore. But despite how much he wants to pull his free hand back to give himself the relief he's starting to desperately need, he keeps it against Billy's thigh, to support him and give him a better angle. It's okay, he mentally tells his aching length, you'll get some action soon and why am I talking to you.]

[Since he was already pretty close, it doesn't take long for Teddy to find the right spot again, and for the second time Billy is setting free one very emphatic groan, this time a little quieter (because he's expecting it) but not muffled (which he apparently doesn't care about anymore). His hips arch, almost lifting right off the bed, and one of his legs lift to curl almost teasingly across Teddy's back, his toes scraping against his skin as they splay out. He feels hypersensitive, his skin tingling, so aroused that he could burst at any second.

He's pretty sure that his body is telling him something, so after a moment of letting himself wind down again, he attempts to catch his breath and speak up again.]

O... okay. Okay, I think we've been... um. Patient. Come here.

[He doesn't want to get too far ahead, and he... thinks he's ready? Teddy can't be that much bigger, surely.]

[Teddy lifts his head up again, so fast that Billy might as well have told him that every comic book in all the galaxies just arrived at the store. He stares, eyes wide when he realizes what Billy's telling him, and he briefly spreads his fingers slightly before pulling them out, trying to give at least a little more of a stretch. His free hand pushes against the mattress to lift himself up, only to return to his thigh.]

Okay. God, Billy, you're - But - You're sure, right? It's okay?

[Doesn't stop him from reaching for the lube again.]

[Billy slumps against the mattress as Teddy pulls away, trying to keep himself relaxed, breathing deeply - in, out, in, out, like those exercises, but instead of panic it's sheer pleasure - to focus on staying calm instead of getting too tense and excited. He's anticipating more of that delightful tingle, so it's difficult, but he wants this just as badly as Teddy does. He thinks of every cliche sex quote that he knows, suddenly understanding just why they're so common- in the middle of what he's feeling now, there's no elegance, no coherency. Just him, and Teddy, and the primal desire to be joined one way or another.

He can't find the words to describe this feeling, can't even answer Teddy's question, so he squeezes his eyes shut and nods eagerly, licking his lips. Yes, he is sure. And it is very, very okay.]

[Okay.

Okay.

Okay, here we go.

Teddy lets out a long breath, something of a quiet chuckle somewhere in there, and grabs the lube, and the condom, all too eagerly. He's done this before; at least, rolled a condom on before, so that doesn't take too long, though the lube is new. And he has to admit, it's a little... weird. Doing that. But even so, he's - ugh, he's finally getting around to doing something about that ache he'd been neglecting. Teddy can't help lowering his head and letting out a low groan, indulging for just a little longer than he ought to in this situation.

It takes knowing Billy's waiting, that that feeling will get much better, that makes Teddy pull his hand away. His hands hover over Billy's legs for a moment, as if unsure of where exactly he's supposed to put them, before he lets one rest on the back of his knee and the other wrapped around his own erection, to guide it.

Teddy feels like he ought to say something cliched and romantic, and his mouth hangs open for a second as he tries searching for the words, eyes dark and eager with desire and care, before he lets out another breathless chuckle. He can't even think straight, god.]

Say something if... okay?

[If it's too much, if he should stop, if it hurts -

He's sure Billy knows what he means. Teddy's mind is a little too clouded to clarify anyway. Instead, he takes in a deep breath, shifts closer, and begins to slowly press into him - and that breath he took in ends up being choked on before he resolutely holds it.

Oh, God.]

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[action; august 6th] now someone has to draw that

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[action; august 6th] I forgot my icon fail so I was so confused at first

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[action; august 6th] WHAT KIND OF ICON CAN I POSSIBLY USE FOR THIS UGH

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[action; august 6th] next time I'm in an art stream I'm ttly asking

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[action; august 6th] it needed to be slain

[action; august 6th] its ghost will haunt you FOREVER.

[action; august 6th] well maybe it'll make ME more adventurous

[action; august 6th] so you can be the one to ask terrible questions

[action; august 6th] and you can be the one to slay it

[action; august 6th] I'm a ghost hunter now eh

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