selfhelp | [IC] Appointments Post

Uh - It's okay. I can. Do it myself. I mean, for you.

[Isn't that the easiest way? For the other person to do it? Besides, it'd be weird to just - just sit there and watch Billy do, uh... that. To himself.

But the process is still so new, and they're really about to do this. There is absolutely no way Teddy's backing out, and he definitely wants this. He's not about to let the butterflies who feel like they're going to flutter themselves to death in his stomach win.

So he leans forward and, trying to quell the nerves of them both, he begins to place kisses against the side of Billy's neck, meanwhile uncapping the lube. Okay. Okay.]

Mm, you should - probably lie down. For this.

[They're still a little clumsy, but knowing that Teddy's as nervous as he is makes Billy feel better about it. He reaches up to curve his hand around to the back of Teddy's neck, tilting his head to give him space and leaning back, pulling the blond gently with him as he lies down against the mattress. He begins to stroke the skin beneath his fingers, breathing deeply, fighting to keep himself relaxed despite feeling like little more than a bundle of nerves right now. He knows that relaxing his muscles is supposed to be a big part of this, but how is he supposed to stay calm when they're actually about to have sex?]

I think I'm supposed to say something cliche or girlish right now, like "oh, Teddy, please be gentle with me".

[Teddy snorts against his neck, and he moves up to brush his lips briefly against the top of Billy's ear before whispering into it.]

Why so girlish? Last time I checked, you definitely weren't a girl.

[And he punctuates that with a roll of his hips against Billy's, and a soft sound that his boyfriend can likely hear thanks to being so close to his ear.

With that done with, Teddy ducks his head so that he can actually see what he's doing. He... lubes up the fingers, right? And then - yeah. That. But Billy's still so tense, and it's staying relaxed is supposed to be a big part of this.

... Hmm. Maybe Teddy can help with that, as well as soothing some of his own nerves.

So he scoots his knees down while he starts to travel down Billy's body, kissing down the length of it appreciatively, while he tries to slick his fingers without looking at them. Of course, that's a little awkward, and he ends up spilling some of it on the bed. But that's all right; the bed's bound to get messy in a very different fashion in just a moment.

Teddy has a goal here. And that goal is suddenly near his face, still hard and hot, and he looks up again to give a lopsided grin. He feels like he should tease him some more for that line, but really, what can he say?

So, instead of saying anything, he just shuts his eyes and begins taking the tip of Billy's arousal into his mouth, while his hands rub together to ensure that the lube isn't going to be too cold.]

[Billy releases a startled but pleased groan when he feels Teddy's lips against his tip, hands lifting so he can twist his fingers in the blond's hair. If Teddy's looking to distract him from what he's about to do down below, he's found the perfect method.]

H-haa... way to prove your point, there...

[His breath quickens, heart racing in anticipation, and he slides his legs upwards so that they're bent, knees pressed on either side of Teddy's body. He closes his eyes, slumping his head back against the pillow, and closes his eyes as he focuses on the tongue on his length rather than the presumably very strange sensation he's waiting to feel.

He's nervous, yes, but he's trusting Teddy to figure out how to do it right. They're a team, after all- the best team. They'll find a way and do it together.]

Hmmm.

[Billy isn't the only one feeling nervous, though Teddy feels a little silly for doing so. He isn't the one who's about to feel what's probably a very strange sensation, after all. He's just... doing most of the work and making sure he doesn't hurt the love of his life and...

Yeah.

His fingers do feel slicked up enough, though. Now... what was it the books and websites said? Slide one finger in first, right inside - mmf.

Teddy hesitates for a second, then slides his fingers below where the other action is going on, moving along the curve, trying to find the spot where things will start and hopefully, definitely, finish. It's easy to find on yourself, yes, but another person? That's -

Aaaah, there we go.

Now, Teddy wants to ensure that this will be as painless as possible for Billy, and he has an advantage with his powers and his position. He curls his fingers first and feels them starting to thin just a little. Sure, it will probably still feel weird, but hopefully not be as uncomfortable at first as the internet makes it out to be.

Now it's time to test that theory. As Teddy takes a quick glance at Billy and rests a supporting hand against his outer thigh, he starts to slide one of those fingers inside, meanwhile taking Billy a little further into his mouth. Nngh. They only just started this and Teddy can already imagine what it'd be like to move things along and take it further, even though he knows he has to be patient and take it slow, for Billy's sake. More to look forward to, then.]

[.........

That's... really weird. Really weird. Billy is distantly aware of it, since it would be damn hard to miss, but Teddy has the right idea of keeping him thoroughly distracted with the part of his body more urgently requiring attention, so the sounds he's making are at least four-parts pleasure. And it isn't like it hurts, either- Teddy's taking it slow for that reason, he's sure. It just feels so bizarre.

He can get used to this, though. Probably. Eventually.

The silence - outside of his own pants and groans - is almost unbearable, though, bringing back his nerves full-throttle, and since Teddy's mouth is occupied he's determined to fill the void.]

Teh... oh my god, Teddy, this is the strangest feeling...

[He doesn't sound displeased, at least. If anything he's baffled by how much he's actually starting to enjoy it.]

Hmph.

[Teddy can't exactly respond with words, though he does wait a moment with his fingers and keeps going with his mouth. He takes him a little further, and he slides the hand at Billy's thigh up to his hip: it's okay.

Still, he does glance up, at least to make sure that Billy isn't in pain or anything, before he lowers his eyes again, slides his hand back to its place on his boyfriend's thigh, and takes it a little further by moving his finger, forward and back, slowly and gently and ready to stop if necessary. If not, though, he'll add a second, equally as slick, and also as thin. He'll try letting them grow back to their original size in a moment.

God, but those noises Billy's making, the way he squirms, the way he can imagine the movement of his fingers being replaced with something else soon - even with the sorely neglected part of his body begging for attention, this is enough to make him let out quiet sounds of his own.]

[Oh god, that's two. Billy can feel the difference at once, and it makes him squirm, though he tries to be careful after a moment when it occurs to him that he's still got his erection buried in Teddy's mouth. Oops. It's hard not to, though, because the mixed feeling of awkwardness and anticipation has him nearly gasping by now. Doesn't help that the sounds Teddy is making are causing little vibrations down his shaft.

The fingers of one hand are tight in the blankets, his body tense and trembling, the other hand still twined in the strands of Teddy's hair. Against his will his hips are lifting a little with each movement Teddy makes.]

K... keep going. I wanna do this. I wanna go...

[He knows they can't rush it, but... well, maybe they can push it a little...]

[Judging by how Teddy's lips curl in a smile, he doesn't seem to mind the way Billy's moving his hips. He moves his head back, tongue dragging along Billy's length, before he shoots him a smirk, swallows as he shifts his gag reflex back and away entirely, then lowers his head again, completely engulfing him now.

As he moves his head back a little more, he pushes his fingers in deeper, stretches them a bit, trying to find something; he'd heard, he knows that there's a certain spot that will make this completely and totally worth it for Billy, he just has to figure out where it is...]

[Well, someone seems pleased with himself. Billy endures Teddy's exploration for a little while longer, since he really, really wants to enjoy this properly, but the weirdness of it all is starting to get to him, especially now that it's deeper, thicker, and it's starting to interfere with that delightful sensation on his erection. He's about two seconds away from asking Teddy if they're possibly doing something wrong when-

-suddenly-]

Hrngh!!

[His hands lash out, slapping over his mouth to muffle a strangled scream. Even with the sound-proofing enchantment he'd given the surfaces of his room, the reaction is automatic. Without it, he's not sure how loud that would have been.

Teddy definitely found something, because it felt like a rush of- of euphoria, waves of pleasure dragging him down from an incredible but brief high. It's hard to breathe all of a sudden.]

Oh... oh god. Oh god, oh my god, ohmygodohmygod.

[At that, Teddy opens his eyes and looks up at Billy again, leaning his head back once more to free his mouth. Well. That was quite the reaction.]

Oh. ... Found it? [WELL WHAT ELSE DOES HE SAY. "Ooh baby you like that?"]

[Uugh, that amazing feeling is fading away and Teddy's moved his mouth and dammit it's feeling weird again-]

I... ha... I'd really like you to find it again, if you could... oh my god...

[Finally, Teddy lets out a huff of a laugh, and he gives a lazy, yet tight smirk as he leans down, letting his lips hover close to Billy's arousal again.]

I think that can be arranged.

[He pulls his fingers back, then pushes them forward again, aiming towards the spot that made Billy react like that. Teddy himself lets out a long breath as he does so - God, seeing Billy react like that...

He kind of can't take it anymore. But despite how much he wants to pull his free hand back to give himself the relief he's starting to desperately need, he keeps it against Billy's thigh, to support him and give him a better angle. It's okay, he mentally tells his aching length, you'll get some action soon and why am I talking to you.]

[Since he was already pretty close, it doesn't take long for Teddy to find the right spot again, and for the second time Billy is setting free one very emphatic groan, this time a little quieter (because he's expecting it) but not muffled (which he apparently doesn't care about anymore). His hips arch, almost lifting right off the bed, and one of his legs lift to curl almost teasingly across Teddy's back, his toes scraping against his skin as they splay out. He feels hypersensitive, his skin tingling, so aroused that he could burst at any second.

He's pretty sure that his body is telling him something, so after a moment of letting himself wind down again, he attempts to catch his breath and speak up again.]

O... okay. Okay, I think we've been... um. Patient. Come here.

[He doesn't want to get too far ahead, and he... thinks he's ready? Teddy can't be that much bigger, surely.]

[Teddy lifts his head up again, so fast that Billy might as well have told him that every comic book in all the galaxies just arrived at the store. He stares, eyes wide when he realizes what Billy's telling him, and he briefly spreads his fingers slightly before pulling them out, trying to give at least a little more of a stretch. His free hand pushes against the mattress to lift himself up, only to return to his thigh.]

Okay. God, Billy, you're - But - You're sure, right? It's okay?

[Doesn't stop him from reaching for the lube again.]

[Billy slumps against the mattress as Teddy pulls away, trying to keep himself relaxed, breathing deeply - in, out, in, out, like those exercises, but instead of panic it's sheer pleasure - to focus on staying calm instead of getting too tense and excited. He's anticipating more of that delightful tingle, so it's difficult, but he wants this just as badly as Teddy does. He thinks of every cliche sex quote that he knows, suddenly understanding just why they're so common- in the middle of what he's feeling now, there's no elegance, no coherency. Just him, and Teddy, and the primal desire to be joined one way or another.

He can't find the words to describe this feeling, can't even answer Teddy's question, so he squeezes his eyes shut and nods eagerly, licking his lips. Yes, he is sure. And it is very, very okay.]

[Okay.

Okay.

Okay, here we go.

Teddy lets out a long breath, something of a quiet chuckle somewhere in there, and grabs the lube, and the condom, all too eagerly. He's done this before; at least, rolled a condom on before, so that doesn't take too long, though the lube is new. And he has to admit, it's a little... weird. Doing that. But even so, he's - ugh, he's finally getting around to doing something about that ache he'd been neglecting. Teddy can't help lowering his head and letting out a low groan, indulging for just a little longer than he ought to in this situation.

It takes knowing Billy's waiting, that that feeling will get much better, that makes Teddy pull his hand away. His hands hover over Billy's legs for a moment, as if unsure of where exactly he's supposed to put them, before he lets one rest on the back of his knee and the other wrapped around his own erection, to guide it.

Teddy feels like he ought to say something cliched and romantic, and his mouth hangs open for a second as he tries searching for the words, eyes dark and eager with desire and care, before he lets out another breathless chuckle. He can't even think straight, god.]

Say something if... okay?

[If it's too much, if he should stop, if it hurts -

He's sure Billy knows what he means. Teddy's mind is a little too clouded to clarify anyway. Instead, he takes in a deep breath, shifts closer, and begins to slowly press into him - and that breath he took in ends up being choked on before he resolutely holds it.

Oh, God.]

[Billy sits up just a little to watch Teddy prep himself, a wry and halfway guilty smile crossing his lips when the blond's hands linger on himself at first. He'd been so patient, making sure that Billy was okay to move towards the next step... hopefully this experience would make every second of waiting worthwhile. And he's selfishly hoping that for his own sake, too. At least he's getting a show out of it, and there isn't a glimmer of shame on his expression as he lets his gaze run up and down his boyfriend's body.

....

Mmhm, that's his.

He gets the gist of Teddy's message once the blond finally gets moving again, managing a simple nod and lying back down again just before he feels a slow, steady pressure returning to his nether regions. It's more of the same at first, and then, abruptly, he inhales a deep breath when he realizes that the erection pressing into him feels much bigger than Teddy's fingers. Not- not ridiculously so, is his next thought, once his brain remembers how to function properly beyond ohgodohgodohgod, but it's definitely a step up. The lube helps, and the prep work Teddy had so patiently worked through helps, but it's still enough to take his breath away for a moment. His expression is tense, his eyes clenched shut, but he doesn't protest or tell Teddy to stop. It's not unbearable, and he's going to endure this unless it is. No chance in hell is he giving up on going all the way.]

[Teddy has found that most of the butterflies that were fluttering up a storm in his stomach have suffered a quick death due do the electricity shooting through his body, and he's suddenly hypersensitive and aware of everything; the sweat on their bodies, the heat of hands as they rest against flesh, the cringe on Billy's face - an expression that makes Teddy slow down and move a hand to grip his shoulder supportively, making sure it's nothing stronger than that.

But Billy hasn't told him to stop, and while he could be just holding back in favor of just pleasing Teddy, he trusts his boyfriend to communicate with him on this. It's said to be a big part of sex, after all, and Teddy can finally see why. So, encouraged by that, Teddy does keep going, even if it's slower than his initial speed.

And, finally, he's fully inside, and he lets out that breath in a choke and a gasp. Oh god, oh god, it feels so good, and Billy's beneath him and he's wrapped up in his heat and Billy, Billy, everything else that could possibly be on his mind is dying along with those butterflies, and Teddy shuts his eyes to revel in the heat and the emotion and oh god he wants to move.]

Billy... I... God.

[First thing's first: Teddy opens his eyes, a darker shade than they've ever been, to gaze down at Billy's face. He has to make sure Billy's okay with this first; it'd be awful - no, really, awful, if Billy wanted to stop, but Teddy would still be willing to back out. It's already utterly fanfuckingtastic for Teddy, and he'd like to make it the same for Billy as well.]

[With Teddy buried to the hilt inside him, Billy finally moves- he carefully extracts his fingers from the blankets he'd been clutching since it started and slides them over the arm holding onto his leg, gripping his wrist in a weak attempt to hold him in place. It's still not painful, not really, but there's a steady throb right in the small of his back, and he feels stretched almost to the limit. From the way Teddy's trembling, he's pretty sure that not being able to move is practically torture, but to force himself to take it before he's ready would probably cause the sort of chafing even magic couldn't wish away, and that would ruin their entire night.

Would be nice if he had super-healing or something right about now, but that's not the right attitude to go about it, either. Lots of couples around the world are able to do this without super powers, so surely they can manage. Not to mention that he's really looking forward to Teddy finding that delightful spot he'd discovered with his fingers earlier. If it feels like that during the real sex? Definitely worth the wait. He wants that more than anything right now.

...When he's ready, though. Not... not until he's ready. Ugh.

His nails scrape over Teddy's skin, and he finally forces his eyes open, gazing up at Teddy with an expression that is half-anticipation, half-apology. Poor Teddy, this can't be easy on him.]

S... sorry. Sorry, just... give me a minute, okay? It's really... [...Tight? Weird? Overwhelming? Uh...] ...intense.

[Poor Teddy? Poor Billy, is what Teddy's thinking. Sure, this is a special kind of torture, but Billy's the one who's taking it here. Teddy just hopes it'll get much better for the both of them very soon. When Billy's ready.

He lids his eyes and shakes his head, a strained yet helpless smile on his face, and he bends to brush his lips against Billy's sternum, letting the hand at Billy's shoulder slide down, unable to help letting his nails scrape a little, to his waist instead.]

Yeah... yeah. Don't be sorry. [He lets out a huff of laughter, though the sound is more like a half groan as well.] Can't ride Bill the pony without - ha - him being ready... mmm?

[Billy shares the breathless laughter, a shudder passing through his body, and he raises his free hand to slide through Teddy's hair again when he's low enough to reach. They're so close now, closer than they've ever been, joined like this, and the connection just makes him want to touch and hold Teddy even more.

The tight ache at the very base of his spine is starting to ebb into a more manageable feeling, which at least gives him hope that hey, they can get things moving again soon. For now, though, his terrible joke is coming back to bite him in the ass, so to speak, and that needs addressing.]

Well... pretty sure any ride needs some training before you can go full-on gallop... walk before you crawl and all that. ...Oh my god, though. Oh. My god. This is probably going to be amazing.

[That gets a grin to come up, and he presses his hand against Billy's hip while nuzzling his nose against the skin beneath it. Teddy still wants to move so badly, enough that his breathing's getting a little harder with strain, but right now? With them trading awful, geeky jokes, laughing breathlessly and touching each other and being joined like this? Right now, Teddy feels like the happiest guy in the world. They're so close right now, and they haven't even started and Teddy still feels like he doesn't want this to end.

Well. He would like to put an end to this really insane urge to get this moving, but we know what he means.

Teddy lifts his head up, regarding his boyfriend with a dark yet warm gaze, and he can't help letting another airy laugh escape, this one slightly disbelieving.]

Oh, god, I know. This is - probably isn't the word I'm going to go for here, a... all right?

[There's no "probably" about it. It is going to be amazing.

He takes in a deep breath, and he lowers his head to press his lips against Billy's abdomen again.]

Shit, god, Billy, you're so amazing, I... [I want you so badly. Jesus, Billy's reduced Teddy to muttering incoherent yet entirely truthful endearments.]

Edited 2012-10-13 10:10 (UTC)

[He really shouldn't be enjoying this- Teddy could get frustrated before too long, as beautifully patient as he is, and it's cruel to take pleasure in the blond's sexual suffering. But god, the pure, unadulterated desire in Teddy's eyes right now is so arousing he can't even find the words for it.

It's a mixture of Teddy's expression - the strained look, the sweat on his brow, the dark gleam in his eyes that threatens to turn Billy's legs to jelly with how heated it is - and his voice, his words, that makes Billy move his body again, forcing life back into his weakened legs in order to lift them, sliding cautiously upwards to curve the slender limbs around Teddy's waist. He knows how much Teddy likes his legs, so he ought to enjoy the feel of them hooked around him, right?

The movement causes some shifting down below, and it's only after he's finished and adjusted that he realizes that the movement hadn't hurt. Hadn't even chafed. That's beyond reassuring, and after a moment's hesitation - last-minute nerves, he brushes them off with a quiet, inexplicable huff - he brushes his hands up Teddy's arms, trying to wind them around his boyfriend's neck and drag him closer.]

You... want to move. I know. I... [He swallows back his uncertainty and shifts beneath Teddy, his hips moving gently, yet teasingly, against the other boy's.] ...I want you to.

[Feeling those legs around his waist just makes it even worse, or better, for Teddy; he bites his lower lip and moves his hand from Billy's waist to clench into the sheets below him. The shifting it causes is even worse/better once again, and Teddy just can't help himself. It's slow, and it's a tiny movement, but he gyrates his hips ever so slightly, and he takes in a hiss of a breath before he lets it out in an appreciative groan. The fact that Billy isn't protesting gives him a little more hope.

Then Billy wraps his arms around Teddy's neck and talks, and moves his hips and Teddy's about to growl out how much of a tease he's being when he actually says that he wants him to move.

Teddy lifts his head to look up at Billy, eyes wide, as if silently asking if it's really okay. And... well, he must like what he sees, because he takes in another breath, and - doesn't move his hips just yet. Instead, he moves that hand against the bed upward to provide more balance as he leans his body forward, tipping Billy's legs back with him and giving him such an angle that Teddy takes in a deep breath and clenches his teeth, but - no, this part's important.

He's moved enough so that he can bend down to kiss the love of his life, and - it's clumsy and open mouthed, but - it just felt right. He wants to keep it at this level, to really look into his boyfriend's eyes and kiss him while they do this, not just get lost in all of the physical sensations alone.

Again, Teddy wants to say something cliched and romantic, but he can't even think of anything except for something like those incoherent ramblings that aren't romantic at all. So instead, once he pulls his head back, he looks into Billy's eyes again, then finally, finally, moves his hips back, feeling the pull and taking in a shaky breath, before pushing back in and - ]

Ah. [It's quiet, but with the growl and the sudden rush of air that came with it, he might as well have shouted it out. He shuts his eyes as pleasure shoots from his stomach to the rest of his body and makes his fingers curl into the sheets and Billy's skin, now at his hip since his boyfriend moved his legs. And he moves again - despite how much he had to wait and how badly he wanted to move, he still keeps it slow and gentle, getting Billy used to the movement before doing anything rougher. And he's pretty sure they can keep it at that pace and he'll still come messily in mere moments.] B-Billy...

[action; august 6th] RUDE

[action; august 6th] I forgot my icon fail so I was so confused at first

[action; august 6th] LOL

[action; august 6th]

[action; august 6th] WHAT KIND OF ICON CAN I POSSIBLY USE FOR THIS UGH

[action; august 6th] I don't think fanart of this even exists

[action; august 6th] hush, it probably exists somewhere

[action; august 6th] next time I'm in an art stream I'm ttly asking

[action; august 6th] oh my god akai no

[action; august 6th] you kill my adventurous spirit

[action; august 6th] it needed to be slain

[action; august 6th] its ghost will haunt you FOREVER.

[action; august 6th] well maybe it'll make ME more adventurous

[action; august 6th] so you can be the one to ask terrible questions

[action; august 6th] and you can be the one to slay it

[action; august 6th] I'm a ghost hunter now eh

[action; august 6th] awesome huh

[action; august 6th] I would do that shit if it was like supernatural

[action; august 6th] i bet these two watch supernatural

[action; august 6th] billy shrieks at all the monsters

[action; august 6th] billy you face pandemonium while quoting project runway yet shriek at monstes

[action; august 6th] he just hates things that jump him and go bump in the night

[action; august 6th] not everything that goes bump in the night is bad okok

[action; august 6th] as evidenced by this thread

[action; august 6th] is this even taking place at night