[Action / Voice] House of M Follow-Up

[selfhelp]

[So... he's probably delayed this long enough, even if a part of him would love to delay it indefinitely. Not only is it a month overdue, but now that he's home again and fully recovered from whatever had been affecting his mind, putting it off any further will just make things more difficult. Frightened as he is of the consequences, he won't get anywhere if he keeps hiding. It's time to apologize for the damage his spell caused, and make things right... if he can.

First, Billy seeks out those he knows personally, friends or acquaintances whom he remembers being affected or involved. Whether they're people he hasn't spoken to since the spell was in place, or people who visited him while he was possessed and halfway out of his mind, he'll try to be as thorough as possible. Teddy accompanies him from place to place, bless him, and they can be found walking hand-in-hand through the village and talking quietly, though Billy will be speaking with the people he's looking for on his own. Teddy's there for moral support, nothing more; the rest is his responsibility.

After those visits, presumably the hard part is over, but there's one thing left to do - reach out to those he couldn't find, missed, or simply doesn't know, as well as the general populace who'd probably noticed strange things going on at the time. They deserve to know about... well. To put it bluntly, the menace to society that he can be. Not that he'd give that reason out loud. Certain people would take issue with it.

They'd be wrong, but.

This time, he uses the journal network, his voice tentative, worried, and sick with guilt, and it happens later in the evening:]

...Hey... it's Billy. Um, Kaplan. I'm kind of a witch. You might not know me. Sorry if you do. ...Last month, October 1st, I was sent back from a Malnosso abduction... kind of a mess. I wasn't thinking straight, and... I cast a spell. It... it screwed with a lot of people. Badly. I don't know the full extent of the damage it caused, or how far it went, but- I do know that- people were hurt. And I know I might not be able to make things right again, either.

["Might". His hope for that one is still pretty pathetic; the forgiveness he's already received is something of a miracle to him. The day's meetings are still weighing on him, and there's an ache in his heart that refuses to go away.]

...Still. I- I need to apologize. Whether or not the Malnosso were the cause, it's still my fault. S-so I'm sorry. I'm sorry... I'm so...

[....]

...I'm... not going to use magic anymore. I'm done. I'm no good. At it. I mean. I- sorry. ...This won't happen again. And if you want to yell at me, or get a better explanation of what happened, or... whatever you need, I'll... be here.

Thanks. For hearing me out.

[And... that's that.]

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[tryit]

[How many times had she hurt Eli? Or Tommy? She knows whatever she had with them wasn't what Billy shared with Teddy. God, she wouldn't even call it a relationship. Nothing really past a few dates and a couple of failed attempts at romance. But it's the only thing she has to compare any of this to.]

Some cliches are overrated. Hurting the ones we love? It needs to be reclassified as "shit happens."

[selfhelp]

Dammit, I can't just shrug it off, Kate!

[It's lashing out, getting frustrated, he knows, but he needs her to understand.]

Teddy's the best thing that's ever happened to me. The best. If I had to choose one I'd trade my powers, I'd trade my life as a Young Avenger, I'd trade anything if all I could have left was him. I hate, hate the idea that something I did could ruin that… I have a right to be worried.

[And it wouldn't be fair to just act like what he did - how he let his magic try to kill Teddy - is okay.]

"Shit happens" doesn't cut it.

[tryit]

[She remains quiet as he yells, refraining from taking the bait and yelling back. No matter how tempting it is, there’s a time and a place to fight. And she knows that this isn’t it. Just like it wasn’t the time for all those months after Cassie and Jonas’ deaths. That had been somewhat different though. Then, the whole team had been affected. Maybe Tommy had handled it best out of all of them. Maybe none of them had handled it well at all. But when it comes down to it, the last thing she wants to see is Billy sulking like he had last time.

He’ll get over it. At least, she tries to tell herself that. Kate’s not exactly certain she believes it.

Her hands go out in front of her, the universal gesture for innocence.]

Okay. Okay, Billy. But for what it is worth? I don’t doubt for a second that Teddy will forgive you.

[selfhelp]

[He wilts almost immediately, slumping back and burying his face in his hands. He doesn't want to fight, or get mad, especially not at her. It's been a really emotional day, both good and bad, and he's still feeling the whiplash of it all.

She's just trying to help. Don't be a jerk.]

...God... god, I hope you're right. I can't... I can't lose him, Kate, I...

[tryit]

I know.

[Even if she doesn't fully get it, she knows the two of them are a pair. There's no splitting them up. Not ever, maybe.

She just wishes that they realized that much themselves.

Kate walks back to him, hugging him tightly. Her cheek rests against his hair as she murmurs softly,] You won't, Billy. Promise you you won't.

[selfhelp]

Y... yeah...

[He wants to believe her. He really, really does, he just... there's so many doubts. In himself, rather than in Teddy- in what he deserves, in what he can or can't earn. This whole experience has been so awful, and sometimes it's hard to imagine it getting better.

But it won't get better - and you won't know - until you ask...]

I-I... I'll talk to Teddy. When he gets back.

[tryit]

[She nods. For now, she suspects that that's the best she can ask for.]

Want me to stick around till then?

[selfhelp]

You can if you want to, but... don't feel obligated.

[He offers up a weak but grateful smile.]

I... think it'd be better if I talked to him alone.

[tryit]

I think so, too.

[Whether she stays or not, as soon as Teddy appears in that doorway, Kate's excusing herself. Some things are always better discussed alone.

She smiles back at him and places a light kiss on his cheek.] Promise me you won't chicken out?

[selfhelp]

...Do I have a choice?

[Probably not, if he wants this fear to go away. It's just going to be a hard first step to take, that's all.]

Wait, don't answer that.