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[Action / Voice] House of M Follow-Up
[So... he's probably delayed this long enough, even if a part of him would love to delay it indefinitely. Not only is it a month overdue, but now that he's home again and fully recovered from whatever had been affecting his mind, putting it off any further will just make things more difficult. Frightened as he is of the consequences, he won't get anywhere if he keeps hiding. It's time to apologize for the damage his spell caused, and make things right... if he can.
First, Billy seeks out those he knows personally, friends or acquaintances whom he remembers being affected or involved. Whether they're people he hasn't spoken to since the spell was in place, or people who visited him while he was possessed and halfway out of his mind, he'll try to be as thorough as possible. Teddy accompanies him from place to place, bless him, and they can be found walking hand-in-hand through the village and talking quietly, though Billy will be speaking with the people he's looking for on his own. Teddy's there for moral support, nothing more; the rest is his responsibility.
After those visits, presumably the hard part is over, but there's one thing left to do - reach out to those he couldn't find, missed, or simply doesn't know, as well as the general populace who'd probably noticed strange things going on at the time. They deserve to know about... well. To put it bluntly, the menace to society that he can be. Not that he'd give that reason out loud. Certain people would take issue with it.
They'd be wrong, but.
This time, he uses the journal network, his voice tentative, worried, and sick with guilt, and it happens later in the evening:]
...Hey... it's Billy. Um, Kaplan. I'm kind of a witch. You might not know me. Sorry if you do. ...Last month, October 1st, I was sent back from a Malnosso abduction... kind of a mess. I wasn't thinking straight, and... I cast a spell. It... it screwed with a lot of people. Badly. I don't know the full extent of the damage it caused, or how far it went, but- I do know that- people were hurt. And I know I might not be able to make things right again, either.
["Might". His hope for that one is still pretty pathetic; the forgiveness he's already received is something of a miracle to him. The day's meetings are still weighing on him, and there's an ache in his heart that refuses to go away.]
...Still. I- I need to apologize. Whether or not the Malnosso were the cause, it's still my fault. S-so I'm sorry. I'm sorry... I'm so...
[....]
...I'm... not going to use magic anymore. I'm done. I'm no good. At it. I mean. I- sorry. ...This won't happen again. And if you want to yell at me, or get a better explanation of what happened, or... whatever you need, I'll... be here.
Thanks. For hearing me out.
[And... that's that.]
First, Billy seeks out those he knows personally, friends or acquaintances whom he remembers being affected or involved. Whether they're people he hasn't spoken to since the spell was in place, or people who visited him while he was possessed and halfway out of his mind, he'll try to be as thorough as possible. Teddy accompanies him from place to place, bless him, and they can be found walking hand-in-hand through the village and talking quietly, though Billy will be speaking with the people he's looking for on his own. Teddy's there for moral support, nothing more; the rest is his responsibility.
After those visits, presumably the hard part is over, but there's one thing left to do - reach out to those he couldn't find, missed, or simply doesn't know, as well as the general populace who'd probably noticed strange things going on at the time. They deserve to know about... well. To put it bluntly, the menace to society that he can be. Not that he'd give that reason out loud. Certain people would take issue with it.
They'd be wrong, but.
This time, he uses the journal network, his voice tentative, worried, and sick with guilt, and it happens later in the evening:]
...Hey... it's Billy. Um, Kaplan. I'm kind of a witch. You might not know me. Sorry if you do. ...Last month, October 1st, I was sent back from a Malnosso abduction... kind of a mess. I wasn't thinking straight, and... I cast a spell. It... it screwed with a lot of people. Badly. I don't know the full extent of the damage it caused, or how far it went, but- I do know that- people were hurt. And I know I might not be able to make things right again, either.
["Might". His hope for that one is still pretty pathetic; the forgiveness he's already received is something of a miracle to him. The day's meetings are still weighing on him, and there's an ache in his heart that refuses to go away.]
...Still. I- I need to apologize. Whether or not the Malnosso were the cause, it's still my fault. S-so I'm sorry. I'm sorry... I'm so...
[....]
...I'm... not going to use magic anymore. I'm done. I'm no good. At it. I mean. I- sorry. ...This won't happen again. And if you want to yell at me, or get a better explanation of what happened, or... whatever you need, I'll... be here.
Thanks. For hearing me out.
[And... that's that.]
somehow you'll survive
Which was why she didn't demand Billy come with her to find him then. Pepper's eyes strayed down to the top of her desk, her mouth drawn into a tight line. She needed to somehow grasp what Billy had told her, before Tony was told. Whether Billy intended to find her alone or first or otherwise, he'd given her the chance to do that.
If only she could figure out how.
rude
Truth be told, now that she’d said it, he really did wish he’d waited until he found them at home together. It wasn’t right, doing it like this. Then again, nothing about this was right, was it?
God, he hated it. Everything about it. It just felt worse and worse the more people he met with.
That’s how it should be, though. It’s… not like this is for fun. It’s fair that it should hurt.
He wished he knew what else to say, though. How many ways can you apologize before it starts to feel empty? Has it just been empty all along?
/shrug
"Can you still do it?" He'd implied not, mentioned the mallynap that served as the precursor to his spell. She needed the certainty of his answer, however, before she could move on. Whether or not Billy could change the world again if the whim struck, chant some string of words and glow blue; she wanted the reassurance that her heart wouldn't be toyed with again, not like that, or at least not by him.
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He wished that helped, knowing that. The disconnect between his own abilities and the power that had created the spell. It didn't really, though. Certainly not for him. It just made him feel more pathetic than ever.
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"Good." That one assurance helped settle a number of things for her; even if she couldn't understand what had happened in full, it was so much less likely she'd be faced with that same heart-wrenching agony again. She'd had too many of her dreams thrown in her face, things that could never be but that had been so beautiful while they were. Pepper didn't think she could take it happening again.
Still, there were matters to be dealt with. As was her way, Pepper closed off more emotional responses in favor of a professional manner. Billy had been a friend, a dear, precious person in their lives--but right now, Pepper simply couldn't see him as that. It hurt too much in light of what he'd revealed.
"I think that for now it might be best if you didn't come over to the house. Not after you tell Tony." For now, because she wouldn't cut off that avenue completely. She could give all of them that much. But in the end the answer was always time, and while it passed Pepper couldn't bring herself to let Billy into the home she was trying to rebuild with her husband.
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And now? To hear that? To be just... cut off like that? It burned, and it took him a moment to remember how to breathe. He doesn't argue, though. He would never have assumed they'd want him to return, anyway. It was good-
....
It was... good... to get that confirmation. To have the question answered, to have that assumption taken out of his hands. So he merely nodded, his gaze trained on the floor.
"...I... understand. I won't... bother you."
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"We're just going to need some time." Days, weeks, longer; she truly didn't know. But the decision had been made and Billy agreed, even if part of her wanted to take it back now. She pressed her lips together, trying to think of what else to say, then slowly shook her head.
"Tony said he was working at the house today. He'll probably still be there." And now that this had all began Pepper wanted it over. There wasn't any way to prepare or to make what came next easier. She stood up, expecting Billy to follow her as she headed out of the office, and ultimately down the path to the house she shared with Tony.
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He glanced back at the door, lips pursing, then he nodded, moving to follow her. No reason to... put it off, besides his own selfish fear. And what he wanted didn't matter anymore. "...Teddy's... waiting for me outside. I just need to tell him where we're going."
And then he'd do whatever she wanted.