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William "Billy" Kaplan (Wiccan) ([personal profile] selfhelp) wrote2019-07-30 03:29 am
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[IC] Appointments Post



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halfnhalf: ([teddy] how did you know?)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-05 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
[Rather than talk right then, Teddy decides to let out a long sigh and rest his temple against his boyfriend's collarbone, both arms encircling his lower waist with the fingers of one hand catching on one of Billy's back pockets. And there, he shuts his eyes, letting himself be caught up in the fact that he's completely covered and surrounded by the one he loves. It's comforting, extremely so, to feel that way. Teddy, as strong as he is, always felt pretty secure in himself in terms of feeling safe. Strange, then, how he feels remarkably safe right now.

It's why he lingers for several minutes, just taking it all in and letting himself relax. It's only then that he opens up those memories in his head, ones that he never let anyone else see, not even Billy. Not even himself, unless it was forced on him. His memories jump everywhere, from the moment Noh-varr had taken Billy out and then rounded on him before he could even get his boyfriend's name out of his mouth, to the time when he had to excuse himself after cutting into some meat at the dinner table, trying to be polite but needing to hurry to give in to the sudden dizziness and nausea.

And, of course, the event itself.

His loose hold tightens a little, and then he starts to talk.]


I've never felt so helpless before. So useless. I've got all this strength, and I couldn't even use it. You know what it's like... It was the same for me, too. I've never been trapped in my life. Even when I was locked in somewhere, I could always just break down the door.

[His voice gets a little thicker as the memories worsen. Billy, screaming and thrashing as much as his bonds would allow him to, and the doctor patting the boy's ear like it had done a good job or something - ]

But I couldn't get out of there. I fought so hard and the thing didn't even budge. I was probably scaring Karolina even more than she already was... I've hardly ever felt like that. You were in so much pain and he kept going and I couldn't do anything...
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[Action - Backdated January 25th]

[personal profile] petitecloche 2013-02-05 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
[Sabriel has managed to settle in quite well in Luceti by now; she had her own set of appropriately fitting clothing, her own room, and a new family to look after her until her Father returned to get her. Along with the coat, hat and mittens she was given by Adele, she's got a backpack slung snug across her back, wings carefully fanned out to either side to avoid getting crushed while she runs around the playground. The swings were fun but right now? She's about to conquer the slide for the fifth time in a row! Sabriel might be giggling like mad as she does but who's around to see her, right?]
thebellthatbinds: (pleased)

[Action, December 22nd]

[personal profile] thebellthatbinds 2013-02-05 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
[So there's a good mix of chocolate chip, cinnamon swirls, both savoury and sweet pretzels and the aforementioned snickerdoodles. Don't mind if Sabriel takes one of them to give them a try too.]

They certainly have a humourous name.

[Can't go wrong with cinnamon sugar flavoured puns.]
petitecloche: pureplumpictures.com (can I play?)

[Action - Backdated January 25th]

[personal profile] petitecloche 2013-02-05 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
[Two or three more trips down the slide and Sabriel just lays there at the bottom, legs hanging off of the end while she laughs and catches her breath. Ah...if going down the slide was so much fun, maybe climbing up it would be a worthwhile challenge? With a soft grunt she flips over onto her stomach, hands braced on the sides to start climbing her way up the sloped piece of metal when she spots the young man seated nearby.

Now that's a familiar face...she'd met so many new people in Luceti that it takes her a moment to place a name to him before she calls out in delight.]


Billy!
halfnhalf: ([teddy] i'm not a skrull)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-05 05:23 am (UTC)(link)
And I couldn't. Every time he hurt you, it felt like he was... ripping apart something inside me. And when he taunted you, when he wouldn't shut up -

[This part is harder to admit. Teddy's already allowed tears to escape, and Billy can probably feel them starting to gather in his shirt. And now, this... It wasn't just that the warden was hurting Billy so horribly, but the fact that he enjoyed it, that he kept going on and on about not using anesthesia, to keep screaming, even taunted Teddy himself, saying that the bracers were cutting down his strength and that it was useless but he loved to see him struggle anyway - ]

I wanted to tear him apart. I think... just for that moment, I really wanted him to die.
Edited 2013-02-05 05:25 (UTC)
halfnhalf: ([teddy] the only mom i ever knew...)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-05 10:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Teddy just hopes those movements are supportive rather than out of horror, that he, too, had fallen into a very dark place for just a moment. For just a moment, he wanted to tear the bindings off the walls, break the warden's arms out of his sockets and watch him bleed. For just a moment...

And he'd been ashamed of himself for months because of that. It's... both terrifying and relieving to get it out in the open, because what does Billy think of him now? Is he a lesser man now? Is he not as good anymore in his eyes?

The thought makes a shudder run through his body, and he takes in a hiccuping breath. These things are so hard to admit, and he knows, he knows that he's not done yet. So many things kept inside are still waiting to come out, and now that he's started, he just... can't stop. Not unless Billy asks him.]


Then - Then it was my turn. I was actually kind of relieved - It meant he stopped hurting you. And - You were still recovering, but I tried to be the tough guy and not show any pain for him. [He lets out something of a half chuckle, half sob.] It sure didn't work very well...

I don't think I've ever felt pain like that. It was so deep, and when it tried to heal he just cut again. And when it healed too fast, he used some other tool. I wanted to get out of there. And - I heard you screaming, and Karolina was saying something too, but...

[This is perhaps the hardest thing of all to admit, and he squeezes his eyes shut and presses his cheek against his boyfriend's chest, his voice shaky.]

I wanted to die, Billy. That's how bad it was. I just wanted it to stop...
halfnhalf: ([teddy] drown it out)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-05 12:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[It takes a good deal of will for Teddy to move his hands up, up to rest them against the sides and nape of Billy's neck, and for him to keep eye contact for more than three seconds. But after that, he has to shut his eyes and grit his teeth, unable to nod due to their foreheads touching together, though he tries to convey it by the back of Billy's jaw with his thumbs. Never - or, at least, he'll do his best. In their line of work, just one wrong move could cost them their lives. But for as long as he's living, he'll never wish for that again. For Billy's sake as well as his own.

With a sharp inhale, he continues. Just one little part...]


I thought I did die at first. I was - I was choking on something, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see anything; it was like everything just started to... dull. Or something.

[He opens his eyes, tears still falling freely, and he shifts his hands back to cover Billy's cheeks.]

And all I could think about was you. You calling my name was the last thing I heard.

["Stop it, stop it!! You're killing him! Teddy, Ted-!!"]
Edited 2013-02-05 12:26 (UTC)
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[Action - Backdated January 25th]

[personal profile] petitecloche 2013-02-05 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I was! It is!

[Change in plans! Sabriel carefully turns around to hop of the slide so she can scamper over to where he's seated.]

Playgrounds are fun! Have you ever been on one?
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[Action - Backdated January 25th]

[personal profile] petitecloche 2013-02-06 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
Oh wow!

[That big huh? For a couple of seconds she's just lost in thought trying to imagine what a playground that large would be like, how many other strange slides and thing would be in it and...and there must be so many other kids to play with!]

Lucky~! We don't have anything like this back home.
halfnhalf: ([teddy] i can still hear it)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-06 09:44 am (UTC)(link)
[And Teddy does the same for Billy, fingers stroking over his cheeks and catching his tears. It's rare, moments like this, where they cry together rather than Teddy trying to hide it for both of their sakes. Discovering something more about each other; Teddy knew the gist of what Billy was thinking after he passed out, but never like this. Never after Teddy finished pouring his heart out about it.

The side of his lips quirk up humorlessly, just as an automatic reaction.]


You were right. I didn't feel anything until I woke up. It still hurt so much, it wasn't healing right or anything, but I guess he stopped...

I heard you. ["I want you to die."] I heard Xavin. ["I will show you the face of war!!"] And the next thing I knew, Karolina was freeing me, and it still hurt, but...

Xavin was about to kill someone. I know... I know that I thought he should've died earlier. I know he doesn't really deserve mercy from anyone. But... We were heroes. Young Avengers. All of us, even the Runaways. I couldn't... break everything we were and everything we all fought to be and believed in by letting Xavin kill him. I couldn't.
halfnhalf: ([teddy] cassie he's not over there)

[action; january 28th]

[personal profile] halfnhalf 2013-02-06 11:40 am (UTC)(link)
[His gaze darts down to Billy's stomach again as he bites his lip and nods slowly. It's true, after all. They were all heroes, and they would live up to that ideal, be worthy of it. They were better than the warden, and that... knowing that is so much more satisfying than any of the other grim outcomes that they all likely thought of.

And now... Teddy's done talking. Everything he'd kept inside is out in the open, leaving him feeling vulnerable and weak.

It's why, after just a moment, he squeezes his eyes shut, wraps his arm around his boyfriend's waist and buries his face in his shoulder, allowing himself to just cry and hide right here, murmuring a few apologies for - for everything. If he can be like this with anyone, it's Billy, the person he loves so much. Billy's the only one who can see him without the walls he likes to keep up, leaving behind someone who can cry and scream and cling just as much as anyone else. And he's he only one who Teddy allows himself to lean on while he gathers up those shattered walls again, rather than hide away to do so. And... he's okay with that.]
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[Action - Backdated January 25th]

[personal profile] petitecloche 2013-02-12 05:01 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe...but it'd be a lotta work.

[It would have to be completely handmade, including all of the materials used to put everything together. Glancing back over at the construction her smile fades a little.]

It makes lots of shadows...the bad things might hide in it.