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[Action, July 11th-13th]
[To say that Billy is a bit of a basket case right now would be a severe understatement. His mom is here. His admittedly teenage and therefore doesn't-know-who-he-is-and-kind-of-alternate-universe mom, yes, but that doesn't seem to make the intensity of his feelings about the matter any different. One small comfort is that they're getting along (so far), and their shared powers gives them common ground, but there's still that lingering... risk that he can't stop thinking about. That he won't be able to keep his secrets, that eventually everything will come crumbling down. He's terrified of that.
The first day, he does little else but fret and mull over it, after separating from Wanda; Teddy's kind enough to cancel any of his daily doings, since he's in no state to be pretending like everything's normal. It had been hard enough with Wanda the first time. Today, though, he feels much better. His head is more clear, he's found his center of calm, and he spent at least half the day and night before meditating so he figures he has a firm grasp on his sanity again.
There are certain things that he knows he needs to do, especially since he ditched all his usual priorities the day before, so he's made himself a list, and today he's going through it all. It is as follows: He swing by the art gallery and removes some of his work, namely anything that features the Scarlet Witch (only a couple of pieces, mind you, and they're his, but art theft is still art theft). He attends training with Logan and begs for forgiveness about skipping the day before (beg may be an overstatement of what actually happens because he isn't really sorry at all). He'll attend X-Men Training and try to perform decently despite feeling ridiculously scatterbrained. And finally, he'll probably talk to some Very Important People in the process of completing the rest of his list.
In the end, well... he's decided to track down Wanda again, maybe not now, but some time in the near future. Because despite his fears and misgivings, despite everything he's likely to say to everyone else - that it's a bad idea, that he'll mess things up, that he'll accidentally reveal himself - the temptation of sharing his powers with hers, teaching her, helping her, is too strong to resist. This is about more than a lost family, now. This is about magic.]
The first day, he does little else but fret and mull over it, after separating from Wanda; Teddy's kind enough to cancel any of his daily doings, since he's in no state to be pretending like everything's normal. It had been hard enough with Wanda the first time. Today, though, he feels much better. His head is more clear, he's found his center of calm, and he spent at least half the day and night before meditating so he figures he has a firm grasp on his sanity again.
There are certain things that he knows he needs to do, especially since he ditched all his usual priorities the day before, so he's made himself a list, and today he's going through it all. It is as follows: He swing by the art gallery and removes some of his work, namely anything that features the Scarlet Witch (only a couple of pieces, mind you, and they're his, but art theft is still art theft). He attends training with Logan and begs for forgiveness about skipping the day before (beg may be an overstatement of what actually happens because he isn't really sorry at all). He'll attend X-Men Training and try to perform decently despite feeling ridiculously scatterbrained. And finally, he'll probably talk to some Very Important People in the process of completing the rest of his list.
In the end, well... he's decided to track down Wanda again, maybe not now, but some time in the near future. Because despite his fears and misgivings, despite everything he's likely to say to everyone else - that it's a bad idea, that he'll mess things up, that he'll accidentally reveal himself - the temptation of sharing his powers with hers, teaching her, helping her, is too strong to resist. This is about more than a lost family, now. This is about magic.]
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Would you?
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[Sigh. His own damn fault for being stubborn, apparently.]
My mom's here. She showed up yesterday.
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...awkward.
[And the real question, to which he had already guessed the answer:]
Does she know?
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[So really- what's the point?]
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What do you want from this?
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I want my life to stop being such a freaking mess, is what I really want.
[...But... okay, that's not a real answer. And it's certainly a valid question.]
...I don't know. I know what I did want... I wanted to meet her, talk with her, find out if she, you know, wants me. Before I got here I didn't even know for sure that she is my real mom. And now that I've got answers, I have no idea what to do with them, because yeah, she's the same person, but at the same time she's not. She's not my mom.
[He's not sure that's a real answer either, but right now it's the best he's got.]
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And she shan't have the answer you seek, as young as she is. [Unless she had Billy really young, but that's not the impression he's gotten.]
If you can stand it, it might be informative to befriend her... but I shouldn't like to see you torturing yourself.
[He's certainly curious now.]
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[He smiles faintly, glancing down at his hands, power briefly sparking in his palms.]
Her magic's... the same as mine. It feels the same. Neither of us have ever felt anything like that before. I guess... we kind of bonded over it? So that's something.
[Working with other magic users was fine, and he loved those experiences, too. But none of that can really come close to the feeling he'd had, that euphoria and the sensation of not alone that he'd gotten when he felt their powers entwine.
It was an amazing thing, and he can't help craving more.]
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That is a lovely feeling.
[That was why he had decided to be around Billy, among other reasons. But it was nice to be around other magicians. They understood certain things.]
That is good to hear. I think you've taken the right tactic.
I rather want to met her myself, now.
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[He's pretty certain that Loki wouldn't do that, but he can't help double-checking. This is a serious deal.]
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...Thanks. That actually means a lot.
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[He still gets a little thrill when he hears Loki acknowledge the word, so even that helps to cheer him up a bit.]
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So glad you approve.
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Anyway, about Wanda... since our magic is the same, I'm going to start teaching her to control it. So I might be bugging you for even more advice soon, as a head's up.
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You're welcome to bring her along or send her my way as well, you know.
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[He gestures somewhat vaguely, unable to fully express with words the full meaning of the experience. He figures Loki understands, but he can't stop feeling a bit helpless in the description department.]
...Anyway, she looked so hopeful that I couldn't not make the offer. And backing out would be like betraying that trust she has in me, in a sense.
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Well, I can hardly tell you what to do, even if I am concerned. [Well, he could, but he can tell this is an issue where drawing lines would be foolish if he wants to keep Billy as a friend. Besides, if everything goes haywire, death isn't permanent and a bit if chaos would do this boring place some good.]
You could also invite me along, you know.
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He'll just have to befriend the lady on his own. That could be fun.]
Not my business, I suppose. [They have no formal agreement, after all. But it feels oddly disrespectful. He didn't like it.]
Do be careful.
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[It's only two young, inexperienced reality benders working together, unsupervised.
What could possibly go wrong?]
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I'm sure it will be.
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Anyway, I should head home. Teddy'll worry if I hang around too long.
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