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[Action, July 11th-13th]
[To say that Billy is a bit of a basket case right now would be a severe understatement. His mom is here. His admittedly teenage and therefore doesn't-know-who-he-is-and-kind-of-alternate-universe mom, yes, but that doesn't seem to make the intensity of his feelings about the matter any different. One small comfort is that they're getting along (so far), and their shared powers gives them common ground, but there's still that lingering... risk that he can't stop thinking about. That he won't be able to keep his secrets, that eventually everything will come crumbling down. He's terrified of that.
The first day, he does little else but fret and mull over it, after separating from Wanda; Teddy's kind enough to cancel any of his daily doings, since he's in no state to be pretending like everything's normal. It had been hard enough with Wanda the first time. Today, though, he feels much better. His head is more clear, he's found his center of calm, and he spent at least half the day and night before meditating so he figures he has a firm grasp on his sanity again.
There are certain things that he knows he needs to do, especially since he ditched all his usual priorities the day before, so he's made himself a list, and today he's going through it all. It is as follows: He swing by the art gallery and removes some of his work, namely anything that features the Scarlet Witch (only a couple of pieces, mind you, and they're his, but art theft is still art theft). He attends training with Logan and begs for forgiveness about skipping the day before (beg may be an overstatement of what actually happens because he isn't really sorry at all). He'll attend X-Men Training and try to perform decently despite feeling ridiculously scatterbrained. And finally, he'll probably talk to some Very Important People in the process of completing the rest of his list.
In the end, well... he's decided to track down Wanda again, maybe not now, but some time in the near future. Because despite his fears and misgivings, despite everything he's likely to say to everyone else - that it's a bad idea, that he'll mess things up, that he'll accidentally reveal himself - the temptation of sharing his powers with hers, teaching her, helping her, is too strong to resist. This is about more than a lost family, now. This is about magic.]
The first day, he does little else but fret and mull over it, after separating from Wanda; Teddy's kind enough to cancel any of his daily doings, since he's in no state to be pretending like everything's normal. It had been hard enough with Wanda the first time. Today, though, he feels much better. His head is more clear, he's found his center of calm, and he spent at least half the day and night before meditating so he figures he has a firm grasp on his sanity again.
There are certain things that he knows he needs to do, especially since he ditched all his usual priorities the day before, so he's made himself a list, and today he's going through it all. It is as follows: He swing by the art gallery and removes some of his work, namely anything that features the Scarlet Witch (only a couple of pieces, mind you, and they're his, but art theft is still art theft). He attends training with Logan and begs for forgiveness about skipping the day before (beg may be an overstatement of what actually happens because he isn't really sorry at all). He'll attend X-Men Training and try to perform decently despite feeling ridiculously scatterbrained. And finally, he'll probably talk to some Very Important People in the process of completing the rest of his list.
In the end, well... he's decided to track down Wanda again, maybe not now, but some time in the near future. Because despite his fears and misgivings, despite everything he's likely to say to everyone else - that it's a bad idea, that he'll mess things up, that he'll accidentally reveal himself - the temptation of sharing his powers with hers, teaching her, helping her, is too strong to resist. This is about more than a lost family, now. This is about magic.]
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[Loki nods before walking towards the counter to start making said sandwiches.]
Now tell me why you are this sad, Billy of New York.
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It's... not really a trust thing. Not really. But it's not really something I should be talking about.
[...Well, it's a start. And half a warning, really- can he be satisfied with a partial truth? Because he's not getting the full one.]
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[He looks over his shoulder for a moment and sighs afterwards. That is the most blatant half-truth he has ever heard.]
But perhaps it is not my place to inquire.
[He moves to put pickles on the sandwich, digging his hand deep into a large pot to get them out.]
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[He feels like he ought to give something, though, if only to avoid sounding like a total hypocrite after prying Loki over stuff in the past, so... hmm.]
Hey... say someone from home, someone really important to you, showed up in Luceti from another universe. And you want to tell them who you are, what they mean to you, but they don't know you, and... telling them could seriously mess them up. What would you do?
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That has already happened. Thor has been here. And he was most definitely Thor and I am most definitely Loki. But I am not his brother, and he is not mine.
I am not quite sure how your situation is. Is it a family member as well? Or a former sort of love interest that might cause a tragic break-up between you and Teddy?
[He places the sandwich in front of the other and rolls his eyes briefly.]
By Odin's sores, Billy of New York, there is no need to be vague about this.
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[Ugh, maybe he shouldn't have said anything at all. Subtlety and vagueness are not great skills of his- he prefers to be open, up front about the whole issue if it's something he wants to share.
But fine, fine. Maybe it's inevitable. But he still needs to be careful.]
...It's my mom.
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First of all: your secret is safe with me.
[He nods shortly, a very serious expression on his face.]
You haven't told her you are her son, right? Even though the situation between Thor and me has been quite similar to yours there can be a danger that if you mention this to her...you might not even get born in the future.
That would be quite tragic, you see?
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[He sighs quietly, stewing over that for a moment. At least Loki's already agreed to help him hide it, but...]
...I've been... advised to tell her eventually, though. Because Luceti isn't great about letting secrets stay hidden forever. So now I'm not sure anymore.
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Well, my advice stands as it is.
You need to stop fretting that much. Have you ever heard of the Midgardian disease called a 'burn out'? Apparently it is caused when one stresses about a variety of things for a long time.
[There is a hint of concern shining through in his voice.]
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Disease? I guess it does seem like that's what it is sometimes. It sure it persistent. But... yeah. You're probably right. But how do you just stop worrying about stuff? If there's some secret to it, it's news to me.
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[Loki pulls his knees up now while he keeps on fidgeting with his sandwich.]
I thought it was.
You have been leading a very tough life, yes? Perhaps some bullying because of your preference for men, right? Misunderstandings? Parental problems?
Try not to connect your current life and situations to the problems you have faced in the past. It will make the problems bigger and your life even tougher.
It is what I do. It helps. A problem is there to be solved, if they remain unsolved then one shall has to deal with it.
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Is he really that upset about Wanda, or is this just the icing on the problematic cake?]
I guess... it's harder to do that when the problems I have can't be solved. Not all of them, anyway. So they just sort of sit in the back of my mind and bug me.
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[Loki taps his fingers on the table.]
They do that for me as well. I cannot deny that...
[He nods.]
...but try to remember that they get solved in the future. One way or another...
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[That's... true, yeah. Tommy had said it himself- they find her in the future, they finally get to know her as their mother, and she accepts them. And maybe it doesn't all go perfectly - he'd definitely gotten that impression - but maybe it doesn't have to. Maybe finding her is enough.
And maybe, since he'll get all of that at home... maybe it's okay to just be friends here.]
...You give surprisingly good advice.
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I have been thinking about this entire concept of bff's. Since I used to have Saori and Leah as my bff's and that proved that it is most okay to have multiple bff's instead of just one...
Perhaps we could become bff's too.
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I think I'd be okay with that.
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[Loki finds himself taken aback by the surprised expression on Billy's face and there is a hint of wariness on his face now.
The wariness disappears a bit when Billy starts to smile back at him]
Ah. You gave me the impression that you were in doubt about becoming my BFF.
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[He shrugs.]
I'm not against it, though. It's actually kind of an honour.
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Er...I think it is not that. Perhaps it is tied to a certain importance, you see? Even though you have a tight bond with that dreadful copy of my evil self I do trust you.
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I'm glad about that. And... I do trust you, too. I might not always seem it, but it's only because I like to keep stuff to myself most of the time.
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[He reaches out to pat Billy's shoulder.]
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Ha... words to live by. I'll give it a shot, then, how's that?
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[Loki nods firmly while picking at his sandwich.]
Perhaps we should wear friendship bracelets. Saori has already given me a necklace, you see? A bff necklace.
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Yeah? Is it one half of a heart? That's the traditional bff necklace on earth.
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Aye! Do you have one as well?
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