selfhelp: ([billy] oh god. oh thank god.)
William "Billy" Kaplan (Wiccan) ([personal profile] selfhelp) wrote2013-07-12 09:13 pm

[Action, July 11th-13th]

[To say that Billy is a bit of a basket case right now would be a severe understatement. His mom is here. His admittedly teenage and therefore doesn't-know-who-he-is-and-kind-of-alternate-universe mom, yes, but that doesn't seem to make the intensity of his feelings about the matter any different. One small comfort is that they're getting along (so far), and their shared powers gives them common ground, but there's still that lingering... risk that he can't stop thinking about. That he won't be able to keep his secrets, that eventually everything will come crumbling down. He's terrified of that.

The first day, he does little else but fret and mull over it, after separating from Wanda; Teddy's kind enough to cancel any of his daily doings, since he's in no state to be pretending like everything's normal. It had been hard enough with Wanda the first time. Today, though, he feels much better. His head is more clear, he's found his center of calm, and he spent at least half the day and night before meditating so he figures he has a firm grasp on his sanity again.

There are certain things that he knows he needs to do, especially since he ditched all his usual priorities the day before, so he's made himself a list, and today he's going through it all. It is as follows: He swing by the art gallery and removes some of his work, namely anything that features the Scarlet Witch (only a couple of pieces, mind you, and they're his, but art theft is still art theft). He attends training with Logan and begs for forgiveness about skipping the day before (beg may be an overstatement of what actually happens because he isn't really sorry at all). He'll attend X-Men Training and try to perform decently despite feeling ridiculously scatterbrained. And finally, he'll probably talk to some Very Important People in the process of completing the rest of his list.

In the end, well... he's decided to track down Wanda again, maybe not now, but some time in the near future. Because despite his fears and misgivings, despite everything he's likely to say to everyone else - that it's a bad idea, that he'll mess things up, that he'll accidentally reveal himself - the temptation of sharing his powers with hers, teaching her, helping her, is too strong to resist. This is about more than a lost family, now. This is about magic.]
handing: (thoughtful consideration)

Re: [action]

[personal profile] handing 2013-07-15 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
That's true. [It could’ve been like Howard and Tony were, before or after Howard found out the truth. But Billy’s history with his mother was vastly different that Tony’s. She’d encouraged him even without realizing Billy was her son, while Howard never seemed satisfied with anything Tony did.] And maybe you’ll have the chance to know her in a way that wouldn’t be possible in your world.
handing: (but you said don't push it)

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[personal profile] handing 2013-07-18 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
But you can’t be her son. [Which has to be a heavy weight for him. She’d seen all the ways Howard’s presence got to him, before and after he’d found out the truth. It isn’t exactly the same; Billy’s relationship with his mother is much better than Tony’s with Howard. But maybe that makes it harder in some ways.]

I think it’s important to remember what you do have. Get to know her. That may help you figure out what to do too.
handing: (thoughts kept to myself)

Re: [action]

[personal profile] handing 2013-07-23 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess so. [She smiles sympathetically to him as she hands over the last piece. It isn’t easy, but she’s sure Billy will do what’s right.]

You know I’m here if you want to talk, right?
handing: (i am happy yes)

Re: [action]

[personal profile] handing 2013-07-26 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose. [Although the smile makes that answer a bit more certain.] Just don't do it again.
handing: (subtle smile)

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[personal profile] handing 2013-07-29 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Always, Billy.

[She reached out, just long enough to rest her hand on his shoulder and give a soft squeeze, then headed off as well.]