[...Happy... he can understand Teddy being glad of that. He knows what it's been like the last several months, with his ever-changing mood and the depression he's been struggling with ever since he'd been pulled out of the dark. He's still fighting it, and it's not like Teddy's proposal is some magical cure-all for his woes and uncertainties and a plethora of fears that could engulf him if he let down his guard too much.
But it's a shield, at least, a balm and a balance. A reminder that even in his worst moments, there's still someone rooting for him. Someone to pull him back from the edge and keep him from becoming the sort of monster they'd wanted him to be. The ring, the arms around him, the smile on Teddy's face... it's all proof of that.
He's safe. He's good. And... Teddy's right. He's happy. So he smiles, to let it show, and nuzzles gently against Teddy's hair, kissing the crown and smoothing it down, if only so he can ruffle it up again later.]
I felt happy. And I still do. I'm really glad you asked, Tee... I don't know when I'd have had the courage to do it.
[He wants to believe that he would, eventually - he's not that pathetic - but it wouldn't have been now, or even soon. This worked out so much better.]
[Action, March 14th]
But it's a shield, at least, a balm and a balance. A reminder that even in his worst moments, there's still someone rooting for him. Someone to pull him back from the edge and keep him from becoming the sort of monster they'd wanted him to be. The ring, the arms around him, the smile on Teddy's face... it's all proof of that.
He's safe. He's good. And... Teddy's right. He's happy. So he smiles, to let it show, and nuzzles gently against Teddy's hair, kissing the crown and smoothing it down, if only so he can ruffle it up again later.]
I felt happy. And I still do. I'm really glad you asked, Tee... I don't know when I'd have had the courage to do it.
[He wants to believe that he would, eventually - he's not that pathetic - but it wouldn't have been now, or even soon. This worked out so much better.]