[Teddy can't understand that. And again, the words come back, you're not enough, you're not enough, and he takes in a hitch of breath and presses his fingers to Billy's chest as if Teddy would die if he can't feel his heartbeat anymore. How could Billy feel that way if he knew there were people reaching out to him? How could he not see that?
Billy's words just make the ache in his chest grow, and it hurts so much to hear that. This person that he treasures and loves more than anything in this world felt like he was worthless, like he shouldn't live anymore. Teddy thinks the world of him, and Billy thinks the opposite. It feels a bit like all of his feelings and all of his love are being spat back at him, and he squashes down the irrational anger from that as best as he can.]
You're not -
[But Billy isn't done, which might be just as well – it's still hard to breathe and he isn't sure he could get everything he wanted to say out.
It didn't work.
That begs the question, what did he do? What did he try?]
[Action, October 26th]
Billy's words just make the ache in his chest grow, and it hurts so much to hear that. This person that he treasures and loves more than anything in this world felt like he was worthless, like he shouldn't live anymore. Teddy thinks the world of him, and Billy thinks the opposite. It feels a bit like all of his feelings and all of his love are being spat back at him, and he squashes down the irrational anger from that as best as he can.]
You're not -
[But Billy isn't done, which might be just as well – it's still hard to breathe and he isn't sure he could get everything he wanted to say out.
It didn't work.
That begs the question, what did he do? What did he try?]
What...?