[God, does he ever. Just sitting in the background while other people fight... it feels wrong. It is wrong, especially when his power is right there and meant to be used.]
I am, though. I keep thinking- if I was stronger, or better at other stuff, I could be like Kate. Help people without powers, and maybe just- use them in emergencies or something, you know? It's not like having powers makes me better than her. Or anyone. But I'm not... really good at anything else. I tried that already, and...
[He shrugs slightly. The swordfighting and dagger lessons with Loki, the archery attempts with Viral, the self-defense classes here and there that he'd utterly failed at. Even with someone as patient as Teddy giving him tips he was still just mediocre at best. When facing someone down for real he'd be snapped like a twig. His only real success (if one could even call it that) had been against the zombies when Teddy was hurt, mindless enemies who had no thoughts about tactics and were easy to hit.
It would be a lot more pathetic if he didn't have an infinite pool of energy within him that he's just kind of refused to tap into for all this time. Or maybe that's the most pathetic part.]
I just wish it was easier to want it more than fear it.
[Action, May 6th]
[God, does he ever. Just sitting in the background while other people fight... it feels wrong. It is wrong, especially when his power is right there and meant to be used.]
I am, though. I keep thinking- if I was stronger, or better at other stuff, I could be like Kate. Help people without powers, and maybe just- use them in emergencies or something, you know? It's not like having powers makes me better than her. Or anyone. But I'm not... really good at anything else. I tried that already, and...
[He shrugs slightly. The swordfighting and dagger lessons with Loki, the archery attempts with Viral, the self-defense classes here and there that he'd utterly failed at. Even with someone as patient as Teddy giving him tips he was still just mediocre at best. When facing someone down for real he'd be snapped like a twig. His only real success (if one could even call it that) had been against the zombies when Teddy was hurt, mindless enemies who had no thoughts about tactics and were easy to hit.
It would be a lot more pathetic if he didn't have an infinite pool of energy within him that he's just kind of refused to tap into for all this time. Or maybe that's the most pathetic part.]
I just wish it was easier to want it more than fear it.