[He knows that, but this is different. Because he knows if he ever lied to Rogue, she would quite literally walk away. He fears this was similar. He's also not entirely certain how to explain it, and the whole thing is making him feel a terrible sort of fatigue.] Not if she believes I willfully broke my word.

[Oh... right. Billy had never known about that. No one had known, expect for Rogue, who had kept faith on the topic, and Adele, who was no longer here. Tony had perhaps guessed, but he, too, was long since gone.

It's too late now. He's mentioned it. And with everything else that's come rushing out this evening, he might as well just have that out too. For once in his life he's not of a mood to keep things close. Let him have all these humiliating secrets out in a self-flagellating burst.]

Something that plagued me, the first time I was here. [He puts his face in his hands, taking a deep breath.] After I'd had my mouth sewn shut again. Rogue called them... yes, that's it. Panic attacks.