I think it's a bit of the problem. I mean... you're desperate to feel better, aren't you? To be better. You said yourself- you want to be normal. You want to... do your duty, or whatever. But if Rogue isn't the one pressuring you, then the one who's in a hurry for it is you.

[He winces as he plucks free another splinter. Ugh, that's a mess.]

What do you think is the problem?