[Mountain goat, he was about to say. But then Billy starts to kiss his stomach, and Teddy decides to just push that line of thought away and focus on this instead. (That line of thought was stupid anywa - )
He is still sensitive there, and the way his breathing, and his stomach along with it, shudders before it relaxes to something slower gives it away. But he doesn't push Billy away, doesn't pull himself away, doesn't tell him to stop. This is more than just sex for him, too; it's equally about giving Billy the chance to want and take this as much as it is about him trusting his lover. It's about being intimate again, sharing all their wants and desires and love and trust together. It's about Teddy finishing the thought "And he'd never hurt me" without an ironic chuckle and the sensation of hands around his neck echoing behind it.
So he takes it, notices the gentleness of it and lowers one arm not to push or pull, but to stroke his fingers through Billy's hair. This is good, this is okay. No more stopping. Thank you for noticing and being so gentle.]
[Action, November 23rd]
[Mountain goat, he was about to say. But then Billy starts to kiss his stomach, and Teddy decides to just push that line of thought away and focus on this instead. (That line of thought was stupid anywa - )
He is still sensitive there, and the way his breathing, and his stomach along with it, shudders before it relaxes to something slower gives it away. But he doesn't push Billy away, doesn't pull himself away, doesn't tell him to stop. This is more than just sex for him, too; it's equally about giving Billy the chance to want and take this as much as it is about him trusting his lover. It's about being intimate again, sharing all their wants and desires and love and trust together. It's about Teddy finishing the thought "And he'd never hurt me" without an ironic chuckle and the sensation of hands around his neck echoing behind it.
So he takes it, notices the gentleness of it and lowers one arm not to push or pull, but to stroke his fingers through Billy's hair. This is good, this is okay. No more stopping. Thank you for noticing and being so gentle.]