At first, Billy isn't sure how to feel. He'd expected a different answer entirely, so to get that is... humbling, yet scary at the same time. He's not sure what to do, so he freezes, giving himself a moment to let it sink in.
Can he do this? Is he allowed to do this? Because god, he... he wants to be with Teddy, he wants to keep moving forward to how things were, he wants to be one with him and feel him moving and- all of it, but...
...I can't want it...
...can I want it...?
He's fighting with the fear, but it's visible in his expression - not of Teddy, not of the act itself, but of the position, of taking, of wanting, when his own wants have done so much damage already. He's afraid of himself.]
[Action, November 23rd]
Oh, god.
At first, Billy isn't sure how to feel. He'd expected a different answer entirely, so to get that is... humbling, yet scary at the same time. He's not sure what to do, so he freezes, giving himself a moment to let it sink in.
Can he do this? Is he allowed to do this? Because god, he... he wants to be with Teddy, he wants to keep moving forward to how things were, he wants to be one with him and feel him moving and- all of it, but...
...I can't want it...
...can I want it...?
He's fighting with the fear, but it's visible in his expression - not of Teddy, not of the act itself, but of the position, of taking, of wanting, when his own wants have done so much damage already. He's afraid of himself.]
...A... are you... sure...?