[That... he needs a minute to think about that, actually. Because he knows some things, sure, and there's a lot he doesn't know, at the same time. The uncertainty is the worst part of all of this, aside from the fact that it happened at all.

What does he know, though. What does he know?]

...I know... I'd never have done what I did without... something else being a part of it. I mean, that's what I have to believe, if... I'm ever going to be able to get past this. It's either that, or start calling myself a monster... because only a monster would do that to the people he loves...