Before this all happened, I was going to ask you to...
... But you wouldn't want that, would you? Especially not now.
Teddy stares ahead for a moment, just watching Billy's lips move as he speaks, feeling a hitch in his own breath over how Billy just doesn't understand how much he means to Teddy. He thought...
He thought this would be forever... He thought for sure Billy knew...
But he shuts his eyes, not even caring about the two tears that drop down to their hands. He's hiding so many things, and he's just... so tired of it. He hates trying to hide everything, he hates it.]
I want you alive, too. You have no idea how much, Billy... I know that you don't think about how other people feel when you're in a... a state like that. Believe me, I know.
[How many times had he thought about it in the past? Brief little thoughts that he never followed through on, but never took into account how other people would feel. How many times did he think, if I wanted to, how could I even get past my healing thing...?]
I'm glad it didn't work. I'm glad you know how much you want to be alive... [He opens his eyes again, twisting his hand free of Billy's to brush against his cheek instead.] It's... going to get better, okay? This thing you have - it's not forever. I know it's hard, but... that's why I'm here beside you. You're not alone in this. You've got me, Billy, and... I wouldn't be better off without you. I want you here... I want you to keep remember what it's like, wanting to be alive. Please...
[Action, October 26th]
Before this all happened, I was going to ask you to...
... But you wouldn't want that, would you? Especially not now.
Teddy stares ahead for a moment, just watching Billy's lips move as he speaks, feeling a hitch in his own breath over how Billy just doesn't understand how much he means to Teddy. He thought...
He thought this would be forever... He thought for sure Billy knew...
But he shuts his eyes, not even caring about the two tears that drop down to their hands. He's hiding so many things, and he's just... so tired of it. He hates trying to hide everything, he hates it.]
I want you alive, too. You have no idea how much, Billy... I know that you don't think about how other people feel when you're in a... a state like that. Believe me, I know.
[How many times had he thought about it in the past? Brief little thoughts that he never followed through on, but never took into account how other people would feel. How many times did he think, if I wanted to, how could I even get past my healing thing...?]
I'm glad it didn't work. I'm glad you know how much you want to be alive... [He opens his eyes again, twisting his hand free of Billy's to brush against his cheek instead.] It's... going to get better, okay? This thing you have - it's not forever. I know it's hard, but... that's why I'm here beside you. You're not alone in this. You've got me, Billy, and... I wouldn't be better off without you. I want you here... I want you to keep remember what it's like, wanting to be alive. Please...