[Billy hesitates there, because... well. Look at what honesty got him last time. But Teddy asked, Teddy's waiting, and... he's so tired of the lies. Fake smiles and fake worlds and ever-shifting faces, magicking away the pain when all he's really doing is sweeping it under the rug.
It's enough.]
...Sometimes... [His breath catches, and he swallows, eyes clenching.] Sometimes I think... you'd be better off without... me. You wouldn't have nothing, you've got Kate, and Tommy, and Ororo, and Katniss,and Cap, and Mia, and... there's so many people who care about you, Teddy. People who aren't me.
[People who don't hurt you like I do.
People who are alive, and whole, and themselves.]
But... I know it's just... it fades. It fades, it goes away, and I remember again. I think about moments like this, or- or the first time I brought it up, how scared you were... and how scared I was, when I thought about dying. I remember how I felt, after I tried, how I was... I was so glad it didn't work. I remember how much I wanted to be alive...
[Action, October 26th]
It's enough.]
...Sometimes... [His breath catches, and he swallows, eyes clenching.] Sometimes I think... you'd be better off without... me. You wouldn't have nothing, you've got Kate, and Tommy, and Ororo, and Katniss,and Cap, and Mia, and... there's so many people who care about you, Teddy. People who aren't me.
[People who don't hurt you like I do.
People who are alive, and whole, and themselves.]
But... I know it's just... it fades. It fades, it goes away, and I remember again. I think about moments like this, or- or the first time I brought it up, how scared you were... and how scared I was, when I thought about dying. I remember how I felt, after I tried, how I was... I was so glad it didn't work. I remember how much I wanted to be alive...