[He knows it's hard to hear. It's hard to say, too, which is half the problem right there. Neither of them want this. But he knows that they need it, too. And now that things are in motion, now that the truth is out, he can't stop.

We used to have no secrets, and... now we have so many.

I don't want to be a part of that.]

I tried... to cast a spell. Just one last spell. I thought it... would all go away. My powers are fueled by willpower, right? I thought I could make it happen if I wanted it. Just... just say the words-

[He cuts himself off, biting his lip again, swallowing back those words. Teddy will understand, and... Billy doesn't want him to hear it said.

"I want to die."

I was so stupid...

He's still very conscious of how viscerally upset Teddy is, how tense he is against Billy, how shaken and heavy his breath is. He needs Teddy to hear the next part without a second panic attack stacked onto the first.]

So I... I tried. I cast the spell. And it didn't happen.