[It's only when Billy looks at him that Teddy realizes the way he's holding him. As if Billy's shoulder caught fire, Teddy jerks his hand away, all sorts of things going through his head. You did it again, you used too much strength again, look at you, you're not good enough and you can't even hold yourself back properly, you're so stupid, how could you do that, he's your boyfriend, you're terrible -
But that soon fades into another mantra in his head, Billy saying that line over and over, the laughter before it, the expression on his face and his eyes - And Teddy closes his hand into a fist and ducks his head, taking in a quick and shuddering breath.]
Don't. Don't say that, please, don't... don't do this.
[Don't let someone take you away from me. Don't let yourself fade.
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But that soon fades into another mantra in his head, Billy saying that line over and over, the laughter before it, the expression on his face and his eyes - And Teddy closes his hand into a fist and ducks his head, taking in a quick and shuddering breath.]
Don't. Don't say that, please, don't... don't do this.
[Don't let someone take you away from me. Don't let yourself fade.
Don't go where I can't go.]
I can't... please, Billy...