[He wants to believe that. God, does he ever. He just can't believe in himself the way Teddy does. He doesn't deserve that faith Teddy has in him; he honestly can't think of a single thing he's done to earn it right now. Is it because of the thing inside him, whatever Teddy was talking about- that strange weight on his mind that pushes and crushes his comprehension of what he should or shouldn't do, what's right to say or show or feel? Or is it because he just- hasn't? Hasn't earned it... even after everything.

Too late to earn it now.]

You're not supposed to love someone who does horrible things to you... you're supposed to cut them out of your life. Move on. Let them be horrible all by themselves and find people who treat you like you deserve.

[He's not one of those people- not anymore.]