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[Billy has never thought of himself as one of those obsessive stalker boyfriends who needs to be attached at the hip to his significant other at all times. Really, he'd always figured they were pretty good about mutual space. A two-month separation with the potential of spending years in this place without seeing Teddy again is, however, apparently the trigger he'd needed to become one, so after one too many looks from Teddy - some patient, others not so much - he'd officially gotten himself banished from the apartment for the afternoon after too much worried lurking. Which is... not the greatest thing ever on a hot day like today, but ten minutes down the road he realizes that, yeah, he'd been a little ridiculous, either blowing off his responsibilities or dragging Teddy along for the ride. He's happy and eager to have Teddy here, but they'd lived separate lives at least half the time back home; no reason for that to not continue here as well.

It's just hard to let go after you've missed someone for that long.

Still, that's how he finds himself out and about for around five hours today, doing the following (in no particular order):

- a late lunch at Seventh Heaven
- searching around the library for comic books
- combat practice in the Battle Dome (with or without his trusty new teacher)

While at the library, a few sketches find their way into his journal, more or less like the following: this, this, and this. Some time afterwards, a scribbled message appears below.]

What are some good ways to deal with bad dreams?

[Once he's finished all his daily stuff, he'll be bringing groceries home around dinner time, in the hopes that he's allowed. Feel free to run into him at any time.]

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And that makes you sound like Tony.

[That's one of the nice things about Pepper and Tony's relationship: being able to poke fun at one another. And yes, it falls neatly in line with the unspoken rule of I can make fun of him all I want. You can't.]

I really do hope so. It might help you feel a little less alone when you're by yourself.

[Oh man, ouch. Back home that would actually be an insult.]

I must look pretty pathetic right now.

[Except Pepper 1) is not from your home, 2) loves Tony, and 3) is teasing. Remember that Billy.]

Why do you say that?

Sitting around sulking like this because he asked for a few hours on his own? I was never this bad before. I spent two months on my own before he arrived and I was fine.

[Pepper gives Billy a sympathetic smile at that.]

You know, I didn't really cry when Tony disappeared--when he was kidnapped by terrorists, I mean. I was definitely terrified, and there were very bad days, but mostly I just focused on the job, and tried to keep things together.

But when they said they'd found him? I lost it. I honestly think that if it were physically possible to bawl my eyes out, I would have. Tony even noticed when he got off the plane. I had to make a crack about how I hated job hunting.

I think part of it was the relief, and part of it was realizing just how much I missed him. And that's before he and I were ever a couple. So if you look pathetic now, I had to look even worse then.

[Ah... that sounds familiar. The terrorist stuff is pretty ancient history for him now, but he remembers it; whether they were dating at the time or not doesn't even matter. How you feel about a person... how it feels to have them torn out of your life... how it feels to have them return... that's what really matters, in the end.]

I cried when I found Teddy. Twice, even.

[He understands.]

[Ancient history for Billy, just a few years for Pepper. But so long as he gets it; that's all Pepper wants.]

It'll get easier. Especially if Teddy doesn't make a habit of missing board meetings and other scheduled appointments.

Actually, he's pretty good at being on time. At least, as much as any teenager can be.

Right. No self-respecting teenager can be completely responsible. I'm sure you've got your share of bad habits too.

No doubt. Don't ask Teddy, he's probably got a list. At the very top, bold print, underlined, is "Can't stay out of trouble."

[Find him a super hero that can, is his defense.]

[Pepper can't. In fact, she lets out a short, humorless laugh when he says it. Guess what mental image just came to her mind?]

Then suddenly I have all the sympathy in the world for your boyfriend.

[Oops?]

And yet he's the one who'll fly between two warring alien clans in the middle of a battle when he's already injured.

Oh no. Don't. [And Pepper's face is in her hands, because really? She has it hard enough just worrying about Tony.]

You're all the same, aren't you? Being noble, putting yourselves in danger--giving the people who care about you heart attacks.

[Pepper laughs again, although it still sounds a little hopeless.] I understand why, I do. But I really don't want to hear about it any more than I have to. Please?

[That makes him pause, stopping to think about what he's saying now. He's still not used to talking about- well, anything to do with super heroes and whatnot with people who aren't in the same situation as him. No wonder she's getting stressed.

He offers up a weak, apologetic smile, trying to shift topics a little instead.]

My mom said kind of the same thing a while back. ...Sorry.

It's okay. [On some level, at least. Pepper takes a breath, lets it out slowly. At least she's got a decent recovery?]

Really. And if you ever do need to talk about that, I'll listen. [Because Pepper knows it helps Tony when he needs to vent.] But it is a little hard to hear about.

[She does- it's admirable. But her point has been made, whether she meant to or not, and his agreement re: her offer is, well... not entirely sincere.]

Yeah... okay. I'll remember that.

Hopefully you'll do more than remember. [Because really, Pepper is honest in that she will listen. She'll also probably cringe, but she doesn't mind being a little scared if someone really needs to talk.]

Anyway. We were talking about Teddy's list of your bad habits. Which would have to be pretty long, if you're looking to beat out Tony.

Oh my god, I'm not that ambitious. He's had way more years to develop his flaws than me, I'm pretty sure he'd win.

[Not that Tony Stark doesn't have his fair share of merits, mind you, but that's not what this gossip is about. He's still smiling, though, so he's clearly not saying it to be mean-spirited.]

Right. So I guess we'll just have to see where your list is when you get to his age.

[One tease for another. But Billy's right, because Tony isn't all bad. Pepper may be grinning a little more as she thinks of that.]

At least he's got enough positive traits to balance it out. Mostly.

Sure, mostly. Though I hope that by then I'm not as eccentric as him. His exploits are kind of legendary.

Well, to be fair, you and he do lead very different lives.

[From parental figures to committed relationships.]

And considering that you're already a superhero, I'm sure you'll have your own exploits to brag about.

Haha, that's true! If I stick with the job that long, I'll have plenty of stories to share about it.

[He refuses to acknowledge the "if I live that long" that is ever-present in a super hero of his era's mind. They're teenagers, and teenagers are practically immortal. (Except when they're not.) It's just the way of the world.]

Are you sure you don't already?

[Pepper is more than happy to leave the "if I live that long" part unsaid, despite being older and very aware of how the world really works.]

Oh, I do. Just probably not as many. We did manage to stop an alien invasion one time, though.

[His stories are just kind of limited because so many of them involve some sort of personal tragedy. The Young Avengers have it rough.]

I don't know. Tony's only been Iron Man for a few years now.

...Although alien invasions are apparently a theme.

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